vision12

I was exposed to P. at an early age of 10.
I got Curious and kept watching it turned in to an addiction and I started masturbating.
I am now 14 and slowing down but I will suddenly think about it and start watching p. and masturbating and it goes on for a week or so in tell I start saying that I am worthless which makes me stop for a day or 2 and it has become an infinite cycle. I really want to stop it just has been really hard

Thanks Vision