ZachOrhow

I am a person who went through sexual absue during childhood, it did not cause me any trauma, but i grew up as an introvert missing alot of opportunities to meet and have sex with women in real life to the point where i got myself into p*rn at the age of 10 years old, i was a heavy user, escalted to heavy p*orn categories, that made me not erect when seeing normal nude women on screen, and formed i could say 'gay fantasies that happen all the time on my mind" those fantasies made me act on them on October 2019 irl by having gay s*x with an unknow g*y, i did not enjoy it as much as i enjoyed the fantasies in my mind, so i felt a deep regret, depression, fear, sadness and weakness after that, it was the only time i acted on those fantasies, and i wish not to do it again, Currently i am battling gay urges, fantasies, and hypersexuality, i am not against LGBT but my goals consist of becoming a fighter, a man, a protector of hiw futue biological family, if i follow my g*y urges, i will be the opposite of what i want, i am not intending to do a therapy willing to fight this by myself and by the aid of god, one thing to say is i will never let a mere desire to make me act on something that goes against my will and my goals in life, period.