After 22 months without P and M

Thanks brother. Youtube stopped to be a problem for me maybe 2 months ago.
Installed Wizmage Image Hider in Chrome browser, which is the main browserI use.

A short film that helped me too in the past:

 

300 days without P and M. First time in my life
(been addicted to both P & M around 20 years).

So grateful for this 10 months. Will write in a few days and uptade on the last 30 days.

Apart from huge help from this forum, plus having great accountability partner I met here, it was only possible because of Him:

 

Harold J. Sala - Why what is written in the Bible is a truth
I encourage to read or listen to what he says.

 

Day 311.

A very stressful day, plus conflict with my wife.

A few months ago after such a situation I would have tried to release the tension with P or M (or edging).

For around 20 years stress/frustration/irritation/rejection - was my main trigger to escape to destructive world of porn and masturbation. No longer.

Thanks to the grace of God, accountability partners (one of them, great person I met through this website), accountability software today I have no urges to repeat these distructive habbits from the past.

One day at a time.

Praying also for humility and strength for every day.

"If you think you are standing strong, be careful not to fall." (1 Cor 10:12).

I need Christ (reading Bible, prayer) every day, His strenght for being clean.

 

11 months of freedom from P & M.

A few observation from the last 30-60 days:

- Self discipline is growing, also in other areas, like eating, anger management. Step by step, every month more and more negative behaviours are being eliminated from my life. No secrets, for examle finding it much more difficult to lie to others.

- Sleeping much better.

- Having more hope and trust for the future.

- Getting back more closeness with my wife, something that was missing for a few last years.

- Deeper spiritual life, praying, reading a Bible differently than before, being more connected and dependant on Jesus, relying on Him and His strenght, rather than own strenghts.

Still struggling a bit with fear/anxiety but I know that step by step it will be better also with it.

Key elements for me in recovery so far:
- growing relationship with God (reading Bible daily - this is fundamental to me, plus praying)
- having Accountibility Partners (one aslo from this forum)
- having accountibility software (4 people have constant access to what I see on phone & computer, receive daily or weekly reports)
- helping others who are addicted to this
- taking one day at the time, focusing on 24 hours to be clean.

Onwards friends!

Have a good day. Free from P & M.

 

Day 342 without P & M.

 

Thanks brothers for your encouraging words! It is helping too.

Two things were crucial in the last few months:

Firstly, Youtube is no longer such dangerous, my Accountibility Partner - advised me to install:
Wizmage Image Hider in Chrome. It helps.

Secondly started to have accountibility software, 4 men, friends I trust receive weekly reports with what I see on the internet. It successfully prevents me from looking on youtube at improper contents.

Actually I am not thinking now about a day 345 or 365 days. Thanks for sharing what happened to you brother.

I try to focus on one day at the time. To stay clean one day at the time. Am aware that one bad step can lead me again to return to masturbation or porn. No mather if we are 10 days free or 100 or 500, I believe.

I pray to God (to Jesus - in my case) also to help me and give strenght for another 24 hours to be free from these addictions.

"So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don't fall!" - trying to remember this.

I have been learing humility and staying humble in this recovery - this seem to be a very important too, as:

"Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall." (Proverbs 16:18).

Onward! One day at a time

 

Day 410 without porn and masturbation.

Will write an update in a few days, new changes I have observed in the last weeks.

I am so grateful to be free from bondage of porn and mastrbation this 13 months.
Some people from here and this website were very helpful in it.

Have a good day!

 

15 months without watching porn and masturbating.
First time in my life.

It was much easier for me to get rid of porn (fiished with it at the end of 2014 year) - still was addicted to masturbation in the last few years, doing this from time to time, every few weeks, usually under big stress, fear or anxiety.

This 15 months are one of the best if not the best time in my life.

Improvement in:
- self discipline,
- anger management,
- handling stress and pressure,
- much better sleep,
- much more time spent with children,
- less conflicts with my wife, our relationship is much better when in my heart feel completelly faithful to her,
- diet, eating more healthy.

Apart from that other bad habbits were removed from my life (started to live in a truth and speaking the truth, no more lies, "white lies").

Above all spiritual life on a much deeper level (prayer, reading a Bible).
Without help of Jesus Christ and without relying on Him and His strenght I would not be able to stay clean in this time.

I tried to stop quiting P and M over and over on my own strenghts, without God for around 20 years - unsuccessfully...

I am so grateful for this website too, also for accountability partner who I met here. Learnt a lot from others here!
Before I never knew what is edging for example and how social media or You tube can be triggering. Accountability partner recommended two things
that I started to use:

- Wizmage Image Hider
- and a program Accountable to You https://accountable2you.com/

Both have been a great help for a few months.


Thanks to God, have peace in my heart, no matter how hard are external circumstances right now.

Have a great day!