I really am an addict

Hi there, setbacks are part of the process. You'll be just fine, give it some time, relax.

 

Good choices as people to tell. Wise choice.
Just keep trying and learning.

 

Use how that made you feel as motivation. Don't beat yourself up about it and dwell on it, just use it and move forward. If you already have a plan, think about what you said above and strengthen your plan to cover that situation.
Don't give up.

 

One of the keys to master the self-control needed for not touching yourself is to transmute your powerful sexual energy and urges into productive activities that boost your self-esteem, confidence and self-acceptance overall. Meditation, exercise, and socializing/interacting with people who share your interests and life-perspectives are just a few examples of ways you can transmute that energy.
It took me 15-16 years of failed attempts (while being enslaved to my urges) before a life-changing event made me to push myself harder (over the barrier) so I finally could gain control over it.

Then it took me over a year before I finally could start accepting myself for the first time in my life!
That feeling alone was just as powerful and liberating as braking free from the chains and vicious cycle of PMO.

 

Cut off your access to P, no matter what it takes. Once you are out of denial, radical lifestyle change is how you beat this.

I am cheering you on!

 

I'll be honest, it is really difficult. Reaching out for help was very brave of you. Sometimes it feels like it's easier to give in than quit. But there is a difference between failing and quitting. Stay strong, you can do this.

 

ItsI alright boy, failure is a part of life. To understand success one must lose first. Now remember what is at stake here. Never forget this feeling ever again. This will keep you going.