Not inspired enough for nofap anymore

so for me twice 100+ days of abstinence in last 1 year felt like hardly any improvement. I don't like being around people, not even my family and nothing changed during that period. I am feeling nofap is not as priceless as people make it out to be.

I have seborrheic dermatitis due to excessive fapping and it got reduced significantly during those streaks and another advantage was guilt completely got vanishes though i do regret other stuff and things in the past.

This might sound paranoid, but i haven't seen anyone talking about this condition here it's called PATM (People are allergic to me). It started around 5 and half years for me when i started sleeping all the time and used to suppress my emotions alot.

I have heard this disease happens due to stress, anxiety, fear etc. according to genuine article i found about it on internet. I really believe the line i read somewhere "you gave away your powers to become a better person" and it's a result of fear based thinking.

Whole day i hear at the backside of the street people coughing, sneezing etc. even my family such as my mom, sister, brother have this reactions around me but very moderate. I have a really bad attitude about it so i start shouting and verbally abusing them. It makes me an angry beast and i just can't help it.

I even see these reactions while watching videos on youtube and that's why i stopped watching livestreams it's really scary for me. I also stopped going out due to this condition. I hardly ever leave the house, we have spent 1 and half year in this house but i have only went out twice that too in last few months. I am really upset about how my life turnaround like this.

I have lots of stupid obsessions as well like worrying about cables and connectors being not properly places or plugged in properly. Earlier i had this obsession where i would forcefully tighen up the connectors and water taps in the bathroom but that seem to have faded almost completely in last few months.

I really feel masturbation is evil but i don't know how some people do it without feeling guilt. I really think it's one of the most degrading habit in the history of mankind.
I also believe it can cause bad spirits or demons to attach to the one practicing it, i have myself experienced this in the past as i used to have terrible sleep paralysis few years ago.

I also want to get rid of alluring porn scenes that keep playing in my mind of the videos i watched in the past or recently when i relapsed. I sometime get curious and it makes me horny so i want to avoid that.