Homosexual thoughts only when watching porn

First things first, you need to stop watching this filth. As its warping your mind so much that your even thinking about having sex with a guy. I think take a step at a time and the first thing would be to reboot

 

Hi Ricardo,

To me it sounds like it's very likely to be P-related. I'd say give the no pmo a very good and deditaced try and see where it takes you.

When we masturbate, in a way we have sex with the same sex as it is only us there. This combined with porn can create a lot of confusion and fantasy, I think. And it is good that you've caught and realized this now, because you can do something about it and limit it.

I think you have a great idea to really see what's going on there. Besides more external activities, I would also advise you to think of some internal
activities: meditate, observe and try to understand what is happening in your thoughts, feelings and emotions. Basically, try to really understand what leads you to pmo, what thoughts and patterns are at work.

And then also see if those thoughts and images show up during the day. Don't be obsessed by searching for them (or stressed for having them), but pay attention to yourself, how you are, what you are doing and why you are doing it. In a natural but focused way.

I think we can get into this mess ultimately because we go along the flow and don't question ourselves. So, ultimately knowledge and discipline can get you out of it. But do give it a good try. I think it's great that you've spotted it.

Wish you all the best!
Pau

 

Well this may just be damage from porn because you say you only feel this way when you watch porn, and male porn stars are mostly cast with the same features. Good looking, muscular, defined, abs, etc.

I have had the same outlook in a way, so I’ll share my experiences. I never really had a homosexual urge or desire to be with a guy when I was younger and in high school, and I know that I did not watch gay/trans porn until later after I had homosexual experiences in real life. I’m not saying “go out and get with a guy and see what happens”, but if you have no desire to seek out being with a guy in real life then your fantasies should not subject you to a label. When I had those experiences with guys and transpeople it was more of a lust and sexual urge of release, never feeling my heart was into and would be afterwards.

I would say your bicurious. If you were bisexual you would want to push your limits in real life and have no problem doing so if the moment we’re to arise. If you do not like the way these feelings are having an effect on you, then stop watching porn altogether and the thoughts will go away.

Although there is absolutely nothing wrong with homosexuality.