I am never watching porn again !

yesterday I was fapping and I had never had this feeling again. I felt disgusted, I start raising this mentality in my head before about making myself hate porn.

I don't know how this thought existed but I felt that I want to vomit. for the first time in my life I stopped watching even though I haven't orgasmed. I continued masturbating until I orgasmed but without porn. orgasming made me feel very self conscious. I was like, rather than spending time by urself. go out and socialize. I went out and had a good day.

the thing is, now I am horny and I feel that I want to go out and get to know a wonderful girl that would make me forget about my problems. I know that stopping would help me succeed in relationships.

I feel that this is really it !!!!