Moving Forward

Thank you so much! I know counseling is what we need next. We both have issues beyond our marriage that we need to work on. We did counseling once before, but only a short period. We need something more involved. Next step...

 

It has been over a month since I posted. I am so overwhelmed with life I haven't been able to commit to my relationship with my husband.
I am a teacher and fall is always very challenging. There is so much to do and it takes me a while to get into a pattern. This fall has been especially challenging as I am very unhappy with my boss and things going on at work. I feel so incredibly overwhelmed, I can't keep my head above water. I stay at work very late trying to get things done. This focus on work causes me to slide on my other duties including being a mother, wife, and friend. I am spending so much time trying to do everything right at work. I just feel so inadequate.
With this focus at work, I am tired, crabby, and irritable at home. I can't seem to get myself out of this. It is also a major trigger, because in the past when I was so busy with work my husband would seek porn to fulfill his needs. I am feeling so anxious that I am pulling us apart... again.
I am going tomorrow to finally see a counselor. So much going on that I don't even know where to start.