Overwhelmed, but still Hopeful Newbie

Hi everyone. I’ve been using porn as a transitional “moment filling” experience since I was a very young man. Years of re-enforcement led quickly to a compulsive masturbation habit that continues to this day. I’m 70 now, and am plagued by a host of serious health issues, including prostate cancer. Still I find my mind, imagination, and moments often consumed with fantasy, and of course the projection on and objectification of women, regarding both my internal and external realities. I often sense as well shame that seems embedded with decades of “all over the map” sexual behavior.
I’ve joined this community after months of “thinking about it”. My health issues and home life environment have not provided anything close to ideal conditions for recovery of any kind, and yet I find that I can’t wait any longer to get rolling. Even with everything I’m experiencing, procrastination just doesn’t cut it anymore.
I look forward to interacting with this amazing community regularly, in the hope that newly discovered self discipline, resilience, and connection will help with the re-kindling of life meaning and purpose. Thanks folks.

 

Thanks so much. I’m all in, and appreciate the support. Having this community at my back makes a huge difference in my overall attitude.

 

Thanks much. I’ve checked in on the forum activity for some time now, and there is indeed a deep well of support.