Please dear god do not masturbate.....What fapping did to me

Ok so, as a child and up until 7th grade- I never fapped. I was also a really fun person- I was good looking, had so much fun in life, literally every day was magical and really exciting, I had a really polar and fun personality.

The summer after 7th grade, I fapped the entire summer. And in 8th grade, I had a new found social anxiety. Deadass, my exact thoughts were, "Why am I not funny anymore. Why is everyone else funnier than me?"

Ok so, whenever I fapped, I actually tried to finish as fast as I could, I would try to force finishing (if u get it). This weakened my pelvic floor. Over a period of 3 years, I kept this habit up, and the result- weakened pelvic floor, bad skin, bad looks, depression, 0 social skills, just overall I hate life.

One day recently, I tried to tighten my lower ab/pelvic floor area, and I noticed how much life seemed natural. It also helped me out with my wierd posture. I strongly think that having strong lower abs/Transverse abdominis/pelvic floor is literally a prevention for social anxiety and anxiety in general. Maybe only for me. Or not. When I artifically tighten it, i stand up straight, thoughts get clear, my senses (which used to be really strong) get strong, I am in the moment.

If any of you guys heard of mewing/tounge posture, my weak pelvic floor made my tounge posture bad, because it essentially weakend my lower abs.
(link deleted. But its from a Men's Health Article.)
this source talks about how the tounge and stabilizing core muscles are connected. I weakend my stablizing core muscles, weakend tounge posture, and my face got messed up as I grew (i am 17 done with puberty barely and fucked up during it).

Basically, STOP fapping, I did not use porn or anything, I am not talking about all other negetive effects like dopamine and stuff, this is all I noticed. And I have evidence.