The 2021 Green Day Challenge [OPEN]

113 Green days!

Last night marked an amber day. Really it was early morning before I went to sleep so I'm marking it as yesterday.
Had a wet dream later this morning while in bed.

Here's my April:
28 Green days
2 Amber days (p)

In the "amber", it may feel far and difficult,
but reviewing the month, I see how possible it is.
So my aim is to reduce those ambers.

I'd love to look back and have another 100% green marked in May.

Now, is the time.
This is possible.
Let's go forth.

Keep going friends.
Congrats on all improvement.

 

I made a conscious decision to reset. No triggers, no stress, probably a bit of chaser effect after being with the wife. Just went for it. No regrets actually. If I go 70 days at a streak that 5x per year. I'll take this pace of improvement for now.

I am working with an AP directly now. Not sure how much I'll be returning to this thread as I want to scale down my time wandering around this site. Stay strong.

 

121 Green days.
83 days since a full relapse.
Grateful.
Moving along

 

130 green days.
No amber "line-toeing" in the last week or more.
Very grateful.

Fasting.
Summer coming into swing.
Interesting times.

Wishing you all the best.

 

Haven't been here a lot, it's been a hard year for keeping the days green, trying to come back gradually. I'm not posting but still reading everything, and not many posts last weeks, hope everyone is OK.

 

Keep moving forward, friend.
And good work!


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As for me, I feel feel very fortunate to be at 148 green days this year.
Made it through May without and slips.
Its been some time coming.
Just been continuing to focus on the progress, not the gap.
Seems to have worked quite well.

Peace

 

Excellent job @Ian Of Freelandia - you are really showing the way.
I am afraid that our leader, @BrohkenCompass has been absent.

I nominate you as our leader here, which you are already doing!

June has been a very tough month for me as I have reset 9 times- my worst month since I kept track 7 months ago. Still, today marks my 145th day clean, which means 36 red days over the course of these 6 months.

My goal is to be clean for the next 6 months, but in reality I want to greatly improve on those 36 red days.

 

Our friend Brohken Compass has spent much time and effort organizing this and previous groups. We all owe him many thanks for that. And if I may suggest also a bit of respect by not taking away his leadership role without discussing with him. Perhaps you have DM’d with him in this regard already.

I too have been away from this group and the forums generally for a number of reasons. Choosing instead to work with AP to limit my time on this site, which practically speaking for me turned into another venue to be thinking about PMO. And a time suck.

BC - I hope you are well.
Ian - thanks for keeping the thread alive.

stay strong.

 

Well, I had actually lost track of this forum until the alert from the two of you appeared, @New Focus @tonyk1982 !
So, thanks for helping me re-find it.

@New Focus, I have nothing new to say, only encouragement.
Its easy to feel down during those rough patches, but 145 clean days over 6 months is awesome progress.
I applaud you.
Your best month may be closer than you feel, if you can just focus on the progress and straighten out those edges.

And thanks for the compliment. Certainly I'm leading as I can, first myself and only then others.
I found that to be a major and important part for me to progress.

I hope @BrohkenCompass is doing well, at least progressing.
Yes. Much, much appreciation for his work, as @tonyk1982 stated.

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As for me, today marks 172 Green days. 1 amber (p) day earlier this month.
Even still, I'm quite pleased. Haven't had a red day in months.
I count that as a blessing not a boasting.

Life has been a little crazy lately. Growing pains, doing in short time frames, intense conflicts, challenging. Good stuff.

Peace to you

 

Well, I end the month of June with 28 Green days, 1 amber and 1 red.

I'm pleased enough.
At that place where the red doesn't feel like a disaster, but I know it need to be done.
Fortunately, it was reluctant.
It wasn't like a run away/break down.

So, I'd like to say that one is it.
An even 10 amber/reds for this year would be a good close.
Fortunately, I feel capable of that at this point too.

Find myself eating more.
Sometimes I spot it likely as a reward or pleasure seeking behavour to replace PMO.
Even still, I've fasted like I never have in this last 3 months.
Its important to give healthy breaks.

Peace

 

Good to hear from you BC. Each of our paths our different, and the goal may not be completely PMO-free. I've always viewed bad habits as follows:

- use
- abuse
- addiction

It may be perfectly fine to be in the "use" category. That is my relationship with alcohol, despite having family history with alcoholism and individual tendencies toward same.

Stay strong my friend - in whatever category works best for you.

 

Interestingly similar here.

Good to see you back @BrohkenCompass

PS: Why is it that the smile emoji's on this site look a bit psychotic?

 

181 Green days, out of 191 days this year.

I wrote a post speaking on my recent experience with NoFap and lessons.
I figured I would post it in my journal rather than here.
But it might be a good read all the same.

https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/journal-to-freelandia.290876/page-3#post-3065789

 

188 Green days.

Last night was the closest I came this month to crossing the line.
Found myself searching on the internet and turning the safe search off.
But ultimately I closed out the tab and moved on.

I've slept more since last night and today than I have in a long time.

I've had two wet dreams. Yes, in less than a 24 hr span.
In the 1st one, there was no nudity or sex.
Even in the dream there was an attempt to hold it back.
But it was strong and already coming (cuming? Harhar.)
The 2nd one, I don't recall any dream.

Maybe a bit of a personal share, but I guess that is the gist of this site.

It's just...interesting.

Keep going friends.
Focus on the progress.

 

Not sure exactly where I stand.
Did well through the month of July and then fell into it near the end, amber and 2 reds.
July 22nd, 24th and 30th (or 29th, not sure).

So, going clean through month of August.

Been a busy and emotionally challenging few weeks...confused sometimes.
Clarity I value.

I can feel I've hit a bit of a rut in the road.
So, repairing and going forward.

Taking that advice I frequently give.
"Focus on the progress, not the gap."
Though I have high standards,
all in all, this has been a good year of NoFap.
I'm pleased. I'm happy.

Grateful.

If there is something I've learned, it is things can change fast when we let go of the expectations and allow it