I'm going to tell my older sister about my addiction. I never thought I'd be doing this in a million years.
Tomorrow morning, I'm going to go on a long walk. I don't know which way I'll go or where I'll end up. I have no particular destination.
you're human, allow yourself to be a little bit sad for a moment, but from that sadness keep your eyes on joy. You'll bounce soon. I wish you the best
I just feel slightly worthless right now. Thank you all for caring. It means so much. I just wish I had all the answers. I wish I didn't care what others thought, but I do. It's my flaw that I'm trying to turn into a strength. I just always think about the times I have with a person, and then I just know in my heart that everything will change, because people are flawed. It'll always change no matter what I do.
The confusions have been torturing us, the answers change too. Sometimes i'm overwhelmed by others' opinions which confuse me, idk what's true or false.
The next chapter of my journal is up. It was really relaxing to write today. I felt at peace. I guess writing is just something I enjoy.
For the past few days, I've been getting faint hints that I will relapse. Big hints actually. That's what I get for looking into the past.
The hints are the logical part of your brain telling you not to go there. Listen to it bro, it's gonna show you the way :)
The past is back there for a reason. The future never arrives. The present is the only time we have. Remain focussed on that and everything else will fall into its rightful place.
Remembering the Past is always difficult. Especially when you're doing so well in the Present. This is all for my Future.
I thought I replied back to this, my bad! Dude, imagine all the times you relapse and how you feel afterwards. I haven't felt that way in 2 months. How's that for empowerment and having control over your life? You'll get there soon. I'm not waiting so hurry up
Yeah, I've always felt shit after relapses. Felt drained mentally, physically and emotionally. Since my last relapse (55 days since then at the time of writing). So not far off 2 months. But I feel empowered, motivated, driven and in control of my life. It's not far til I get there. I know I can do this!
I hit 60 days tonight. (Tomorrow). I feel as if something big may happen every 30 days. Let's see what happens tomorrow.
I changed my profile picture to remind me how I felt when I watch porn or masturbate. I don't ever want to go back to that.
If I am the only one who breaks free from the shackles of my addiction then what's the point? I want to save all of you too. Let's do this.