Anger

Well, I guess its part of the emotional regulation that we all have to go (because we are no longer shutting ourselves down with Pornography). My piece of advice would be to try meditation. It won't make feel "zen" or anything like that, but you will find easier to act rationally despite the negative emotions.

 

I tend to get extremely irritable after a few days after relapsing. I get angry and I can't handle insults or sarcasm, because it already pisses me off to begin with. But, goddamn.. where I am right now, saracsm drives me fucking drives me nut because it is stupid and pointless.

 

That is one of the "fun" withdrawal symptoms. I found myself getting angry for stupid reasons. When I realized it was my brain withdrawing from PMO I felt better and it didn't get the best of me. It will pass (my anger lasted about 10 days give or take - it was random too. Some days I experienced it and some days I didn't). Hang in there.

 

Maybe it's a testosterone boost - and righteous anger (the "hulk" kind) can be channeled into other creative pursuits, whereas self-destructive anger needs to be managed and pulled back, finding a peaceful resolve when becoming detached. Anyway, congratulations on the 15 days - something to be proud of, and you have the makings of going further - just six days away from getting out of the gravity pit and beginning the true ascent up recovery mountain.

 

I would use my anger from fapping withdrawal as an advantage to my workouts and running, and speaking up for myself. It is good to be nice, but it is good to have people fear you just a little so you know they can't mess with you, and you earn their respect.