Day 12/10. Camping trip planned this weekend. Will be 15 days before I know it. Carry on brothers. Keep fighting the good fight
get used to the fall, and learn bro. that´s the important thing. habits don´t die easily, they require hard work to dismantle. learn with the falls and get up. don´t give up, never give up
Started 90 Day Challenges on Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 7/204 Days Longest streak 51 days Current Challenge Day 9/90 no PM Day 57 of weight training Day 9 - reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar - feeling a few urges now lying in bed but it is under control and i am not caving and looking at any subs etc I - i know that can never be done now as it always esculates to stronger porn and eventually PMO or an epididymal cyst if I don't ejaculate - feeling good about this knowledge now in my rear view mirror
i hope all brothers are going well and focus. i watch softcore again yesterday. it´s the third time this streak. watched on day 7, 10 and now on day 46. But this time was very different, as the firsts peaks were more about missing the "stuff", this time was about lack of lucidity. i was on a voyage after spending vacations abroad. i sleep very little that night, didn´t take any breakfast (the bus driver didn´t stop once), so i got home starving and very weak after a long voyage. family didn´t arrive yep, and out of the blue, without thinkink, i started to watch softcore, luckly i stopped before major damages were made, no fapping. and went to cold shower straight away. still the fault was mine, in fact the problem was not about the particular bad day, it was about my lack of motivation to nofap. i didn´t motivate myself to NoFap in a long time. the only time i remember nofap was when i visit the forum. once again i thought i was superman, i was in control, no way i would pmo again, bla bla bla, and then bam, felled into this shit like a naive teenager. once again this comes to prove that no matter how far away we think we are from pmo, we´re not, this thing can take over in a matter of minutes. the parasite is just dormant, and its shocking to see the strengh it has even after so long. thank God no major damage was made. living and learning, never take anything for granted brothers. make your motivation daily, read your memos, do your thing, because when the bad days appear the predator is still out there and he has no mercy. i wanted to share this with you, because although it´s not a relapse, it has the potencial of it, this is how relapses happen. so check your mentality everyday brothers, i tell you, if we are not 100% determinated about nofap, the hesitation will just grow and grow until a breaking point. living and learning. Onwards my friends