Save me from the nothing i've become

Hi, I am a new fapstronaut and am quite young (young enough that I don't want to tell) (not that young)I am really forgetful and I have had depression spikes and lack of energy for the last few months, and am addicted to fapping though I don't do porn since I can restrain myself that much. I wrote this blurb after the main part below when I decided to give background information since the rest is a bit confusing without me

I can't stop fapping, no matter how hard I try. I just was reading about reasons not to fap, when one came up that was really interesting. It said that repetitive fapping can lead to depression and lack of energy and motivation, and that really hit me and made me become dedicated because in the last couple of months, out of nowhere i have become really depressed, and I constantly think about how irrelevant anything i do is, and it seemed like it won't stop and sometimes i even feel like i have no reason to live. I read on, and it said that stopping masturbation can make you feel energetic and renew your liveliness and that was what changed me, and made me do this.
I found out about this website a while back, over the summer, and I never wanted to try to document my journey since it would put pressure and I would likely fail, but now that I have found a key to probably the biggest problem in my life, I am motivated enough. I think I can finally be normal and as happy as the people around me

I hope I succeed this time, (all the other attempts lasted at most 8 days before relapse)
Tomorrow is day one since today I already did "it"

P.S
ever since I started fapping almost 3 years ago, I have gone from normal brain to Extreme brain fog, (which I also just learned is the cause of my lack of concentration and forgetfulness from fapping) and I even thought i might have ADD or ADHD but now I know. it's funny too since when I started it , I hated it (but was addicted) and would blame everything on it, and now it is turning out to be true.

 

no, thank you

 

Alright! first day and i'm pumped, ready not to fap!
anyone have tips on how to deal with the chaser effect?

 

wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
i'm so emo..

 

allright this is the start of the third day, and i'm pretty sure this is when the chaser effect hits
uh oh