I am done with this endless cycle of despair!

Hi,
I am somebody who lives in the middle of nowhere (If you guys are wondering, Yes, Courage The Cowardly Dog is my neighbour, (if anyone has seen it)).
I am a 15 year old who is desperately trying to be free. Its been hard for me to be controlled by something so malignant and vile. Part of this might be related to my society in general. Where I live, there is not much freedom for expressing love(dating is clearly looked down upon). I believe the reason why I fell into porn in the first place is because of my repressed feelings. I do realize that none of the girls here are suited for me ( seriously girls here are only interested in one direction songs, or movie actors and stuff) but that doesn't mean that feelings do not come.
So more about myself, I like playing chess, reading books (mostly sci-fi and fantasy), watching movies( mostly action and adventure), watching TV series( Sherlock, Impractical Jokers, FRIENDS etc) and rarely going out to play badminton.

So thats all about me. I hope I will be able to escape from the clutches of porn soon!
Adios!

 

Thank you Septimus and D.J for your support!

 

Right now I'm planning to keep myself as busy as possible doing other activities like reading or playing games

 

Day 1
Had a great day at school. Got full marks in Physics exam and I also got selected for a Scholarship exam!. Feeling happy and had like zero urges today.

 

Thank you for that

 

Day 2
I know I'm a bit late but in my defense I was really busy.
It was a great day. We had celebrations of a certain festival. It was epic and we danced a lot. Had like zero urges.

 

Day 3
I had class. It was the last day before school closed for vacation for a week. We bid our farewells and I went back home. I've gotta stay extra vigilant now cause if there's anything to bring me back to porn... its gonna be holidays.

 

Day 4
Feeling some urges. But I'm holding. ....
TO HELL WITH THAT F***ING BASTARD(sorry for the language but I feel a lot better now lol)

 

Damn I just relapsed.....
Feeling really bad....
Please give me the strength to stop

 

Thanks man

 

I have no idea. I was probably feeling lazy and all of a sudden I just had this urge...

 

I did it again....
I was at my cousins house and now when I came back I had an urge to start watching it again.... Feeling depressed

 

watched porn again . Its because of these spontaneous urges...