suffering from HOCD today cravings are bad....

well its really ugly I never tought I would be thinking about ...I don't want to say it I don't want to trigger anybody but it was crazy I noticed a beautiful girl and my first reaction was she is so cute nice body I defininetly felt attracted to her but then all of a sudden I started thinking about oral sex with a guy ... and couldn't get that off my head for a few minutes then my mind was wondering about it again a few minutes later ..its crazy I never had these cravings before but since I got so much into this fetish sissy hypnosis its the only kind of porn I watch now and its crazy I am really craving it ...I have been watching these videos for like 2 years and a half and now I want to stop but its very hard ...I m not attracted to male bodies but with this fetish I sometimes do feel having sex with guys like it its crazy ..hopefully I can stay 30 days no no PMO and see what happens ..honestly I don't want to turn into a female but these urges are so bad and so addictive..

 

its better if you don't know it... all you have to know about this kind of P is that is the worst of the worst kind of P ...

 

Couldn't agree with you more.