Hi, I'm New...

Hello Folks, I'm Male, 39, Australian. I'm here because i just recently listened to a pod cast by a fantastic modern philosopher by the name of Stefan Molyneux, entitled 'Your Brain On Porn' (i recommend it). This community was mentioned in it and I decided to give it a go.

So I guess as far as introductions go, I am a brand new super noob here so I'm learning as I go but, I suppose in a way this is a way for my to somewhat publicly acknowledge that I believe that my love for porn is having a negative effect on my emotional health as well as my physical and mental well being.

I have loved internet porn for what must surely be close to 15 years.... hmm, have the googles even been there that long?.... Anyway, a long god damn time and I have a particular preference for fat girls... but anything will do. I have at time deleted and thrown away massive amounts of content but always relapse because, you know, hey.... "There's worse things to be addicted to, right?".....

I currently have three tumblr pages running dedicated to my particular favourites and at this moment they are the sick breath at my hind. A wolf that follows me and tempts me with a convenient and easily accessible high.

Anyway, please feel free to chat, or talk or email me, as I'm not really sure how this works, but I'll pick it.

I kind of hope I can use my profile like a diary and submit my thoughts and struggle.

Please forgive my lack of knowledge in the group processes if I post in the wrong way, I'll try to rectify any errors, anyway... sorry just dont wanna step on toes on my first day, you know.

'up the rebels'

 

Thanks, Jack. Yes you're right, I'm married. My wife and I are open regarding masturbation but I'm sure that she is not aware to the extent to which I do it. Certainly not about the porn usage, and again she is aware of my 'old school' DVD collection (which I am emotionally connected to, THOSE GIRLS ARE IMPORTANT TO ME!!! haha!) but I havent touched it years because they are just not convenient enough to utilise these days. I have considered turfing them actually owing to my daughter becoming old enough to start exploring the house. It will be a difficult thing to do I think. And although that comment about them being important was tongue in cheek, there is some truth in it. They are my favourite models and they have comforted me over the years.

 

Well, as far as strategies go... For the moment, and this morning was my first, I am taking a few moments to quietly meditate on my reasons for attempting it and why success is necessary. I guess it is a prayer of sorts, I'm new to prayer and meditation so I find it an odd practice to feel comfortable in currently. But that moment is for me to regroup for the day, reflect on the success of yesterday and move into the next 24 hours..... And hey, this is day two, one day complete at this stage so my strategies may need to be altered at some stage but that's my starter pack.

 

Sure, sounds good I'm fairly new here so I'm still finding my feet but I'm happy to make some connections and chat about our troubles and triumphs. I've hit your 'follow' button so I will keep you in mind and drop you a line soon.