180 Day Warrior Challenge (Updated)

13 days, almost two weeks again! And this time nothing is gonna stop me. Lets go!

 

Checkin in I on day 7 without masturbation

 

Going strong 5 days

 

8:th day check in, lots of thoughts of sex since yesterday evening but still doing good.

 

checking in, on a 10 day streak

 

Hell yeah to all the other guys that are killing it! It's giving me some motivation.

Hurricane Irma turned the power off for a few days. That is the right way to go in a reboot. With very minimal input and just sitting around without power and reading a book. I feel I got to really clear my mind. Journeling really helps. It gets all the "stuff" floating around in there and onto paper or in a electronic log and out of your mind.

I'm on day 10, with 9 full no PMO days behind me.

 

My personal experience leads me to agree. I think there is very little sanctity left in most professions nowadays. It mostly boils down to fleecing as much money as you can from people while talking big about values, ethics, and service to society. Truth can be "manufactured" these days (e.g., by the media or through "sponsored" research). We are expected to swallow this "truth" without thinking in order to to fit amidst the people around us who "also believe" in it. So, it is our collective delusion that supports this "truth".

Some years back, when I was a "hard worker" (synonymous with "moron" these days), I skipped lunch at work over two or three weeks to complete an assignment and ended up with a swollen neck. I approached a reputed private hospital and was told that my parotid glands were inflammed. I was given a bunch of medicines and some (horrible tasting) iodine-based solution to gargle with. After a few weeks, my condition had still not improved. The doctor told me that removing the infected gland through operation was the only option. While he was speaking, I could see his monitor. On the Excel sheet on his system, my "future appointments" were already mapped out. Was he not expecting me to get better even before I had reported the results? Anyway, I went back home, did some research on the internet and experimented with drinking lemon juice for a few days. That worked like a miracle. The swelling was gone completely and I have never had a similar problem since that day. I am not saying that the doctor was necessarily dishonest, but if I had blindly believed his advise, I would have needlessly lost a part of my body!

I had similar experiences interacting with lawyers and policemen during my rather messy divorce case. Gradually, I got so attuned that I could tell from the tone of the person's voice/body language when the "helpful advise" offered by them was a bunch of self-serving BS.

To summarize, my truth now is my own experience. I am willing to try out things with an open mind but no longer blindly swallow truths other people want me to believe.

 

I'm in, or is it too late?
Swedish - 2 Days (Last Checked-In: 13/09/2017)(Relapses: 0)

 

Like you wrote yourself: love is messy. Unlike porn, it has no "perfect" partners willing to please us any way we want whenever we want. Love requires effort, can meet rejection, or, like in my case, may not even be reciprocated. It can disappoint us severely at times. However, despite all its imperfections, it does last forever.

The mind argues that the fantasy (porn) is an easy escape and will provide us instantaneous pleasure. However, this so-called pleasure is a false god and its promise nothing but a mirage. In its grasp, we are little better than those folks from The Matrix who live prepetually in a dream world while having life slowly sapped from their veins by the very machines that feed those dreams. We trade a fistful of life for every drop of this so-called pleasure, which never seems to last.

So, the next time your mind craves escape into the "perfect" world of porn and makes up all sorts of "reasons" why you should watch it and/or masturbate, tell it firmly and deliberately that you choose real life, with all its imperfections, suffering, and vagaries, rather than trying to fill a bottomless bucket with this imaginary pleasure.

I wish you, and everyone else, the very best in this journey.

 

Checkin in. Day 23.
Going offshore today for a month.
Can you believe the ads they put on torrent websites?

 

Agreed

 

Hey guys,

I have a non PMO related problem but I'm in dire need of advise.

My problem is I'm constantly in change when it comes what I want to do in the future. When I was 6, i wanted to become an architect, I focused on mathematics and I'm really good at it but my drawing isnt even "Okay". The game boy thing I can draw is stickman. But it was at age 12 when I somewhat lost interest in architecture and wanted to become a soccer player. I joined a club, I still am playing for them but knowing the fact that I'd never ever join a top club and earn a dime in this carrier has left me in dark. It was only 4 months ago when I changed my dream and wanted to major in economics. As I stated earlier im good in mathematics and really love the idea of managing companies. It would be good but not idea since in my area there's not many companies. And now I want to become a soccer manager. It really s what I love, every time I watch a game, I make analysis. I predicted that Barcelona would win 3-0 and Messi would score, it was spot on. But then again, there's a 0.01% chance of achieving something in this career.

I have talked with my parents too but it was to no avail. They just don't understand my problem. Every time I consult with them, they tell me to become a doctor. I responded, "Your expections are too high." Yes, indeed, becoming a doctor would mean to score 360 points in a test and the max points is 380. It really is hard.

Please guys if you have something to say, don't hesitate since I only have 2 more months to decide.

 

My suggestion:
Make a list of the various potential careers you fancy. Then make a list of the pros and cons of each. Ask yourself where you see yourself in that career 5, 10, 15 years from now. Does that make you happy? What other careers can you transition into if things do not go as expected (a solid educational background will come in handy in this regard)? Talk to other professionals in these fields, if possible. Then make an informed choice and stick with it. Like everything, you will go through the curve of unconscious incompetence-conscious competence-unconscious competence-unconscious competence. It is during the second phase that most people give up. Resist the urge and things will get better.

 

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Thanks man,
I did make a list and pretty much the top one was architecture and the last on the list was being a doctor.

I really love the idea of becoming an architect since my personality is somewhat in between ISTP Virtuoso and INTJ Architect.

I figured, if I become an achitect, I'd have the money to become a soccer player and then at my 40s a coach. So I really shouldn't just rely on sports.

On the other hand, my second choice is to do economics. But both economies and architecture would really suit me since I really am good at mathematics. And it involves observing, not much talking, imagination and the things that suits my personality. But then again I'm not really good in drawing, so I'd get bored if I don't draw nice buildings you know. Maybe economics?

 

Checking in at day 26, noticing I've been having more urges to go to the toilet over the past couple days, slightly inconvenient when I'm out and about but taking it as a sign that Nofap is doing its magic.

 

I'm in!! Day 0 today...

 

Hey guys I am still here!
I had missed out on a few updates here. oh well.
I was really sick last week and that sickness and not being able to do any of my normal everyday life and happiness activities lead to a weakened will and I relapsed once. Being sick is where I think I am my weakest at this point.
But otherwise, I think I am on day 111 of this journey, but I'd have to check.

Was told by my ex that she is now seeing someone new. I am pretty unphased by this at this point. I am doing the right thing and and if she changes and wants to be more than friends we can see if it goes down that road, but I know she can not give that to me right now, even if she wasn't with someone new haha.
I have had a few people seem as though there may have interest in me the past few weeks. One of them could be a new lady on the track team haha.
Hey, the attention feels good! and I enjoy spending time and meeting new girls, trying to make them laugh and see where it goes from there.

I am healthy now and back to feeling fantastic!
Being a strong runner and athlete. Kicking butt in classes.