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Do you remember when a wank/fap was just that?

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by LivinginRecovery, Sep 10, 2017.

  1. LivinginRecovery

    LivinginRecovery Fapstronaut

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    Hey, everyone.

    Do you remember when a wank/fap was just that? Pull your pants down, get it out, look at whatever it was you were going to use, ejaculate quickly, pull your pants up then get on with the day.

    I've been thinking about this a lot. The advent of internet porn and the endless variety ensured I would spend hours and hours surfing with multiple tabs open trying to find the perfect image to ejaculate to when in essence all of them were of a comparable quality.

    Then I discovered edging whereby I could hold off the inevitable for hours at a time before again, yes, ejaculating to the fittest and best looking woman.

    I, therefore, look back on the days when I would just have a wank and it be over and done with as soon as I had cum. Don't get me wrong, my masturbatory behaviour has never been healthy (I always overdid it) however at least I never suffered the ill effects (chronic fatigue, social anxiety) then that have come to me since hooking up to the internet.

    I sometimes wish I could have remained in those days when a wank really was just a wank and not some binge marathon kind of affair where fantasies and prolonging the session took over. Before it was just "she's hot, I'll look at her" and then ejaculating really fast and it being done until the next time. I won't lie, it negatively affected my life even then however it didn't burn a hole through it as internet porno use has done subsequently.

    What are your thoughts on this?
     
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  2. I remember those days. The days when I was young and full of hormones. When I'd come home from school with a hardon and sneak into the bathroom to rub one to the thought of my 5th period science teacher. I'd finish in a matter of seconds. Now I can't get it up for anything but porn☹️
     
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  3. avatarivn

    avatarivn Fapstronaut

    Youth is wasted on the young (or something like that).

    Yes, I remember in my early years, when I PMO once and I were just fine afterwards (no intense cravings to keep watching porn, nor becoming totally useless for 1-2 days afterwards). Now, each relapse becomes a binge and it never seems enough to calm myself down. Somehow, high-speed internet made Porn addiction recovery quite slow.
     
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  4. Ahh the bliss of the innocent wank. When 60 seconds to 3 minutes was all it took, no Kung fu grip needed, porn was just a luxury and all you needed was a flyer with some chicks in bras and panties.

    Fucking porn.
     
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  5. Yes I remember my first masturbation (it was prone masturbation back then) sometimes to images of some teachers it went for about 15 - 20 minutes. Orgasms were so intense that I was passing for some seconds. I miss those strong orgasms and wonder if I will be able to restore it's intensity as it was at the beginning.
     
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  6. zx125

    zx125 Fapstronaut

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    I remember having long 'sessions' even before the internet. Sometimes I would spend hours on end m'ing and then get blue balls. Back then it was videos. In fact I think they were some of my favourite sessions because of the build up.
     
  7. I think if the sensitivity can get back to how it was those days it be awesome. Porn just ruined it for all of us
     
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  8. Porn Free Wanderer

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    I remember even further back than that, when I didn't have access to any form of porn (no magazines, no videos and definitely no Internet). I remember when one MO was enough to keep me satisfied for several days. I tend to think that if we just focus on staying away from porn first and foremost, eventually we can have those experiences again. It might take a while to reach that point though, as our brains are pretty fucked up if we've been watching porn for a long time.
     
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  9. Yeah..it would be nice to just have a wank every once in awhile after seeing a sexy girl at the gym/grocery store. But, for me..I think that could lead straight back to the addiction. So I guess I'm confused as to whether or not I should attempt healthy M after reboot.
     
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  10. gingeralan

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    Yeah, i know what you mean.

    Right now I am a bit lonely and bored, and have a big desire to M. I know where is will prob lead, so I don't wanna start. I can see the start without P then, just feeling turned on and starting to watch. So I am avoiding it at the moment.

    I don't know if i will ever be able to trust myself again. It does sound like I don't use porn as much or for as long as others on this site, but I dislike the feelings afterwards. It has given me so many social an anxiety issues. I just don't wanna do it anymore. I cannot believe the overwhelming physical urge to release tho.

    I suppose I am saying, I am not convinced M can be reintroduced after a successful abstinence.
     
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  11. Yeah, the same thing for me, but then came porn and it got to the point where imagination didn't get the job done. That's when I realized that I had a problem with PMO.
     
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  12. I definitely remember it
    Moreover I remember first time I saw erotic movies on tv and I enjoyed it but when I firstly saw P on VHS tape I was disgusted so much that I immediately turned my eyes ( the samme was with alcohol and cigarettes, they were at first sight so fucking disgusting).
     
  13. LivinginRecovery

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    Same here man! I hear exactly what you're saying. For me, it could be something as simple as a travel brochure with a regular ordinary looking woman in a bikini on one of the pages and I would cum very fast. I have never masturbated normally, I have always needed to binge, however, there was never a need to edge for hours and hours. In the old days, I would masturbate to reach the orgasm and then it would be done. I would do so again later on that day but again just to reach orgasm with no edging involved.

    Yes, high-speed internet porn has changed the game for so many of us. It's mutated masturbation into something quite grotesque and worked to destroy us in the process.

    I know that I can never go back to M because as soon as I cum I am wanting another and another and another. It's just not viable, for me at least. If you are able to then you are a better man than me.

    It always had a deleterious effect on me because I never masturbated normally (when I needed to) but because I wanted to, however, it didn't have quite the devastating effects on me that have opened up since discovering high-speed internet porn.

    Thank you, everyone, for responding. I appreciate that.
     
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