Frustration is my biggest trigger. What is yours?

Today I found out that frustration is my biggest trigger and it is amazing to know what should I be fighting next. It is so silly to finally figure it out. I just got frustrated because my gym "shorts" was ripped and instantaneously my mind went to "just do not go today... stay home watch some P and MO, just to take the edge off".

It sounds like bs but it was actually like that, then I calmed myself down and went looking for a needle but there was none and my mind started again "Come on you know you want it. You deserve it! Just go for it!!!".

Then I became unhappy with my life, body and everything, I was ashamed that I wasted my life and felt like nothing mattered anymore... however I did not relapsed and now I feel sad still but I overcame something and in doing so I learned a bit more about myself, everyone talks about learning something about themselves but that was an "Aha" moment.

I always start PMO when I am frustrated or expecting to be rejected/disappointed. What is your biggest emotional trigger?

 

My Biggest trigger by far would have to be boredom

 

Stress and frustration definitely for me. PMO was my "escape" from the tough times for years. Delusional I was.

 

That is a weird cycle our brains are really screwed up

 

For it is a escape too but the sad truth is that it only masks those feelings.

 

Erection testing it is a real problem because once you are in that state it is tough to get back. Edging it never a good idea. Thanks for sharing I was thinking about something like that and now I know I should not do it.

 

What kind of frustration? i ask, cause i wrote about being frustrated by women was a topic in my last posting

 

Yeah being alone makes everything really hard, that is for sure a big trigger

 

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I noticed that any type of frustation and not just by women causes me to think about PMO. Whenever something goes wrong or will go wrong I default to PMO.

 

its a valve. litteraly a trigger. you can get rid of the stress.... to feel even worse after. Its our concept of sexuality, or finally of everything: as an measn to an aim. A tool. Things are "supposed to make us feel good." No matter what. Thats the one-dimensional-hedonistic-routine that enslaves us.

 

I guess that is why motivational speakers tells us to seek disconfort. I think that trying to get rid of stress would be like trying hard to forget something it will get stuck even more. My goal with NoFap is to understand and embrance stress and disconfort but boy that is hard, harder then anything I have ever done.