Somewhere around 50 days. Feeling good.

Hi Community, I hope everyone is doing well!
It has been more than a while since I have been here on the forum. I had some major changes in my life and I am doing very well. I lost exact track of how many days I lived pmo-free but it is probably somewhere over 50. This is actually the first time in 15 years that I had no orgasm over such a long period of time (I didn't even have nocturnal emissions).

How did I get this far?

• I read the Bible and spend time in prayer every morning.
  
• I started studying abroad and the studies are intense and the homework is pretty hard. That means that I am just very busy trying to learn new things.
  
• I share my bedroom with another student, this definitely helps.
• I work out every morning (except weekends)
• I take cold showers (I think they help me being disciplined)
• I honestly talk with a few friends about the challenges in this area.
• I admit that I am weak in this area and that I will probably not leave this battlefield against pmo until the day I die
• I have Covenant Eyes (Accountability Software) on every single device I use.
• I stopped thinking about pmo, streaks etc. the whole day.

What benefits do I have?

• No, I don't have superpowers, but
  
• I am usually very happy, and I enjoy being alive.
• I don't have these feelings of shame and guilt anymore.
• I feel confident to approach people and talk to them.
• I can be me (I don't need to wear a mask anymore).

I am not sure whether I will come back here very frequently because I don't want to become addicted to a forum and likes etc. but I wish you all the best. Don't give up, it is worth the fight. Thanks to everyone for your support.

 

Thank you guys for your encouraging words! I am still sailing along and probably around day 65. I think it gets easier as the applied principles turn into habits. Urges come back less frequently and I really start enjoying life on another level (not implying to let my guard down now, this proofed to be a bad idea in the past). So, wherever you are, keep pushing forward!

Yes, I am really grateful for how my situation is right now. Even though I want to establish habits that will last even if I would be on my own again. And as you said: you can still get through this, good job on your 16 days. Keep going!

Thank you. Yes, I am sure that God could take it away from us, and I can totally relate to that hope. But I think that even though God is at our side, we usually have to fight for victory in this area with all our hearts. And this might be tiring, but I experience it to be rewarding as well. Keep trusting in God, and pushing forward. You got this!

Thanks, man! Good job on your journey as well, let's go forward in becoming even better versions of ourselves!

 

~110 Days - Time for a short update

I am still pushing forward, and it becomes easier the further I move away from the habit of PMO. I only had to fight severe urges for a few times during the past few weeks, and I am very grateful for that. At the same time, I can see my appreciation for my life and my self-esteem grow. I walk through life with more confidence and less shame, I care less what people think, and I am more willing to leave my comfort zone. I even went to a weekly dance course of my college a few times, something I would have never done earlier in my life, and I enjoyed it even if I would describe myself as a terrible dancer. Furthermore, for the first time in my life did I ask a girl out in person (and she said yes).

Change is possible and even if it takes time, don't lose heart! I tried so many times to leave this garbage behind me, and I fell back into it a several hundred times. The only reason I see change and growth today is that I didn't quit and tried several hundred times +1. If I can do it, you can do it too!

Last night I had the first nocturnal emission in years (this is one of the reasons why I decided to come to the forum today). Does anyone have experiences with nocturnal emissions and the chaser? Should I be especially careful throughout the next few days?

Happy Thanksgiving & be blessed, my fellow warriors.