PMO ruining my life!

bad bad bad.I almost lose my hope to live.I have been there for several times.but I never success.l always say this is last time,but I never stop.I just lie to my self.For recent years,I cant sleep after ,tonight I lost my sleep too.This situation is terrible.I wanna get out,its too ridiculous.maybe I will fall again.cause I can't control myself.

 

start to work now.I got lase than 3hours sleep last night.today is my frist day.always easy for me.and I wont have any desire today.I dont think nofap today is awesome,its a long journey.

 

thank you guy!

 

Thank you for your advice!It's important to me.you are right ,I should stimulate my brain.I should find something to full my boring time.

 

Sure ,the road is under our feet,just take out one step,and another!

 

I still feel Im a ridiculous guy.As a 8-year-loser,I had said to myself this is last time for thousands time.But the words never work.And I did the awful things over and over again.Pron like a black hole that can attract me tightly.For 8 years,the longest journey for nofap is 40days.Olny once,at 3 years ago.I feel regret after M every time.But Im eager to watch Pron several days since my regret.It's seem like there are two of me in my mind.One is good ,another is evil.Im sure that I have no will-power.Im just like a animal that cant self-control.A lazy rubbish.God,how could I get out from it ?God I wanna change.

 

My aim is 100 days,I must succeed.

 

you are stronger than me.I always relapse at 20th day rencently year.at that moment,my urge is max,I even will lose my faith to nofap.thats pretty dangerous.

 

Im a addition 100%.when I got home after work this day.I had taken nap.when I woke up,I stay alone,and I feel strong urge to open the computer and watch the P.I even have the mind to get this down.I have the thought to give up.The evil of me show up.And I didnt realize at the first time. after 10 mins to struggle.I finally escape my place where im alone and go to my work place to study.although my study is not efficient,and I think its wasting my time.however,its better than masturbation

 

It's pretty dangerous when I stay alone.when I stay alone in a private place,I will feel boring.when I feel boring,I just want to find sth to stimulate my nerves.P will become my priority choice.today when I back home.I have nothing to do and I just waste my time.I suff the Internet,lying my bed.and just dont have any motivation to do my job,do something real.of I want to watch the P and masturbate,but I didnt. I am a lazy guy.shit I didnt like what I behavior

 

I really want to back home at9.30PM .but I force myself to get back at10.00PM.that make me feel I can control myself.good