Climbing back up from rock bottom

Hello all,
I'm a soon-to-be 32 year old guy from central Pennsylvania. I've been using porn and pseudo-porn since probably about the age of 8. Masturbation was my way of dealing with my anxiety, and porn made it that much more powerful. I would frequently masturbate multiple times a day, every day.

I struggled for years with trying to quit porn, or at least get some kind of control over my use of it. Porn allowed me to avoid having to get out and experience life. In some areas of life, I considered myself to be successful. I was good at school and had a high paying job. But my social life was non-existent. I had no close friends, and no sense of community.

Porn continued to consume ever more time out of my life. I also began looking for more extreme forms of pornography. The last straw was being convicted for possession of child pornography. This was rock bottom. It took away any sense of success I had in life. My job prospects look bleak, and what few friends I had are gone. The only bright point is that my girlfriend and family have stuck by me.

I just got off of two years probation for my sentence. During that time I attended weekly court-ordered therapy sessions, and for a time I saw a private therapist too. I've learned much about myself and what was missing from life. But there's a long road ahead of me to get where I want to be. The proof of this is that I just stumbled last night and fell for the same old story of just a little bit won't hurt. I think we all know where that ends.

So I've decided to seek out my fellow sufferers. Hopefully your wisdom and advice can help me to find a way to keep moving forward to the life I want to live, and not sink back to the life I used to live.

As I'm still with my girlfriend, I've decided to only refrain from porn and masturbation. It is difficult to go through life and not come across images that evoke a sexual response. But for me, failure will be purposefully seeking them out for their sexual reward, regardless of whether or not I masturbate to them. I've included masturbation as I find it difficult to draw a line between porn that's on the screen and porn that is now in my head (and there's quite a bit in there already).

I've said before that last night was a major stumble, so my new streak starts now. Long may it last.
- Ozatm