A long run means you're in for a bigger dopamine hit

So why can I not seem to get passed day 10 anymore, it’s crazy. It’s hard to believe my first venture into nofap, I got to day 30 seemingly somewhat effortlessly. That was 7 months ago, and since then then I haven’t past day 12. To add to that, after my 30 days of nofap, I stayed off porn for another 100 days or so. Why was it so easy then? Most of my 30 day experience, I was in a flatline state, but that’s what made it easy I guess. I think I was so fed up of fapping when I started it was easier to push through and carry on. The last dopamine hit of my fap and porn at that point wasn’t anything spectacular. But at the moment it’s a different cycle. I fap to porn and get a good hit of dopamine. It’s a good hit because it’s the first time I have fapped in 7-10 days. I guess I have enough self control not to touch myself for another 7 days or so (which Is also a curse), because that means I every time I do fap, it’s a good rush. So my last hit is always strong enough to pull me back in after a few days. When I began I was fapping almost every day for so long, there was nothing unique or special about it. So maybe that it is why I am lost in this cycle. But in all honesty, I felt like fapping was the right thing to do today. I have had a pretty productive week. Got half way throught he book “Power of Habit” (and really enjoying it), went to a worked out a few times, but this morning, sex was just on my mind! And I couldn’t escape. “So what If I just look at pictures of pornstars”… so I switch off my restrictions settings which Apple have made way too simple… okay cool, now get back to reading and try and have a productive day. I must have read the same paragraph in the book a dozen times and still didn’t register it. I can’t read, my brain just can’t sex off my mind. Okay so what if I just watch videos and not touch myself. Okay, this feels nice. I can relax into this, but man I am wasting my day away. I should be reading. I should go to the gym later. I should be going for a cold shower. Dude, I haven’t even brushed my teeth yet! Okay, so what now? I have to fucking release. I literally cannot take this anymore. I have to get sex off my mind so I can get on with my day. Okay, here we go, a video of Nicole Aniston… damn I release. Crazy! 7 days of semen built up. Now here’s the problem, the orgasm was good. It felt like I was still orgasming a couple of minutes later. A part of me now does feel like I can get on with my day. I have released that tension. I do feel bad for giving in, but at least my day can carry on. But here’s the problem, since the orgasm felt so good, I will be tempted to do it again. If I had fapped 15 times in one week, it might be easier to give up because my last memories were of nothing special. But herein lies the catch 22. But my takeaway from this is get rid of porn. Even if I can’t fully get rid of masturbation, start with porn first and foremost.