7TH DAY.. THAT'S HOW I FEEL NOW

Hello, I've been masturbating many times a week since I was 9. I discovered porn at 13 and I started PMO it was nearly eveyday, sometimes even many times a day... (Up to 12) It was just so normal whenever I couldn't do somthing whever I felt bad or stressed even homework or some shitty games it may seem funny but I faped because of candy crush (It's like it's not sexual anymore) I just fap... I could never talk deep to ppl I'm not even shy I'm the first one who does speeches and presentation at school but whenever it's intimate it was boring and every time I feel bad about that I fap,also when going to sleep PMO was my sleeping pill... and dunno if faping is the problem itself or just a disguise or an escape I just use for a deeper porblem that is myinability to talk to people fluently, if I talk for minutes people think i'm intersting but whenever we become freinds they think i'm boring and it stops . I tried to stop many times now... Today while writing this post i'm on my day 7 no PMO and it's hell I can't even sleep I didn't sleep till 5 am and I'm already awake now... I dunno if I should stop or not cause I don't know what's the real problem

 

I forgot to say that I'm 18 yo now

 

Tbh it's torture I remeber all kind, I thought about an ex I treated really bad, about my inability to laugh or hang out with ppl ... It's truly hard... But I went out and eat a nice meal, i'm already feeling a little bit better... You said that PMO addiction and social life problems go hand in hand... I guess it can be really true, now that I didn't fap for a week (It's litterally my highest record in 8 years) I feel something that telling me to do something to go out I just punched my door... That's the feel I wanted but I guess it's should happned 8 years ago.. Now I feel there's a barrier I can't talk to anyone.. I stammer all my words.. I don't enjoy talking either with men or woman.. Can't stand a conversation... It may have something to do with brain hormones and chemicals...I truly don't know what's happening now it's a mess but I truly hope there's a way back and this 7 days are just the start.

 

I also wanna say another thing.... porn for me isn't an addiction.. I don't feel a need to see porn all is about masturbation I can masturbate just thinking of someone rlly hot.. And thanls for your answers @Tripp2 they made me feel somehow better.