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Be careful with this kind of thinking. If you identify as a PMO addict, "self control" isn't going to work. We're all good at controlling ourselves ... 'up until'. Eventually our willpower breaks. That's how addiction works.

This is a very big realization to make. What made you realize this--was it just the fact that you enjoyed the sensation of something penetrating you? That doesn't make you bi, necessarily. Just curious what brought you to this conclusion.

Something else to be careful with. I used to go on CL all the time. I'd say to myself, "oh, I'm not going to answer any of these ads--I just want to look." Funny how many times I ended up in a sexual encounter that started with "just looking".

I would highly suggest using a filter (that you're not in control of) to block Craigslist and other triggering sites. This is an appetite that will only grow with indulgence.

And you'll have to revise your definition of masturbation to include any anal penetration.

I commend you for being honest with your fiance about this. I'm sure it was really hard to share, and I'm sure it was really hard for her to hear.

 

Oy. I used to go to Craigslist, and to Backpage, "just to look". And then I found I was looking at where the people were, and who was doing incall vs. outcall. I didn't go that way, but now that I've been thinking about it (reading your post), I can see I came close.

"Going to Craigslist" like that is not a procedure that would lead to positive outcomes for me, I don't think. YMMV.

 

Google HOCD and read Ybop before you start identifying yourself as bi or gay. Porn twist your sexuality.

 

I'm going to echo @SuperFan and ask what made you realise this? Penetration play can have a place in a straight relationship, too. Check out the sites @Anona posted, and think about it again.