What Do You Hate About Porn Addiction?

The waste of my:
Time
Energy
Confidence
Money
Happiness
Productivity
Losing sense of self worth and esteem
Losing relationships and connection

 

Many reasons why I hate porn :

1. It destroys my marriage. Every time I'm into PMO I despise my wife, neglecting her, ignoring her for days. Not giving her comfort and ignoring her physical needs. I also sometimes finding myself hating her even picturing myself hitting her. I constantly shout at her... It's awful because I know how wonderful my wife is...
2. I'm lazy... crazy lazy... sitting days at work at my desk doing nothing. Pretending to work. Getting madly late on projects.
3. I spend hours at home watching TV series, ignoring the world around me. Being numb and empty.
4. I get fat, not wanting to do sports and eating compulsively...

Porn has been the devil's best tool to destroy me and refraining me from being healthy and good in my life.

 

I hate porn because:
- it messes up your mind
- makes you feel empty
- it can make you feel isolated
- it is dehumanizing people
- i become negative and lazy

 

I hate that all these guys in porn manage to make a connection with these hot women and have unprotected sex with them while the nice person that is me, can't even manage to have a normal conversation with a women.

 

I hate that it makes me feel so disgusting, inside and out. It makes me anxious enough to not make new friends or go anywhere else except the comfort of my phone or tv. I hate that I have to keep this from my wife (I told her that I had this problem once before but she thinks I quit). My parents are old school Christians so i hate that I can’t go to them for help.

 

There are two main things, two "roots" I suppose you could say, which I feel the most regret over. The first root is experienced always in the aftermath of the act itself...wave upon wave of guilt washes over me, crashing and pummeling away the sense of self-worth and goodness which is like a beach eroding during a terrible coastal storm. What is this guilt? I used to think it was unproductive or unhealthy until my addiction started costing me so many things...and then its true nature was revealed to me, the justifications for PMO were so worthless in the light of that truth.

The second root is how it made me see others...people, as mere objects for sexual gratification. Whether strangers (as in the actors/actresses in the scenes) or people I knew who I made things awkward with...my perception of others and my interactivity with them have been so adversely affected by this addiction. I want to return to a place of being and a state of mind where things are in balance. I regret having drifted so far from the safe haven of a humanistic view of the world...into dark, seedy seas of uncertainty.

 

I hate how the images intrude into your life when you are with people at work or with people you love or care about. I hate how it creates doubt about yourself, makes you question who you are when you are in fact a good person. I hate how it makes you feel dirty. This is why I'm trying to change.

 

when i was doing fap, i was disrespecting my self,wasting a lott of time with bullshit,imagine that we can master anything in 5-10 thousand hours i guess i wasted a time life in this and hate my self for this awful habit.

 

Knowing I was watching something I hated and something that no longer turned me on but I couldn't stop watching it.

 

I hate that whenever life gets tough, I have let pmo reach out and grab me. I always fall into the trap that it will numb the pain/anxiety or somehow help me sleep. It NEVER does. In fact, pmo only makes things worse. I agree with others who experience a 'brain fog' for a short time (usually 24h for me) afterwards.

I agree with others too on time, money, guilt, self-deprecation, damage to relationships and stoking anxiety.

Here's an interesting fact for you... did you know that your body deems sex far more satisfying than p/m. Using a hormonal proxy (prolactin increase after orgasm) sex is 400% more satisfying than masturbation! [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16095799]

 

I hate my porn addiction because it is insanity. Constantly chasing a feeling that I will never find in a PC or mobile device. Sort of like chasing a ghost. There's nothing real about it, except for the mountain of damage that it created.

 

I hate porn because it creates an illusion of life.
It makes you feel that everything is under control.
That it's not that bad while actually you couldn't be more wrong.
I feel like using porn makes everything else in your life a lie. You aren't sure why you do things you do. You do just enough not to drown. But once you have your head above the water you go back to PMO and ruin everything. I hate that 'just enough' attitude. I hate porn so much.

 

Amen to that brother. I have been striving with these images for over two months now, but these last few weeks they have been slowly dissipating. Yesterday and today have been two of those days when they haven't really plagued me at all. They are still semi-there but I have stopped reacting to them, so they go away slowly but surely. In two weeks time they will be gone. I am hoping you will go the same way. When they appear in your mind just let them float there, observe them but don't react to them. If you do react they will get stronger. I did this for some time but then I learned to let go after several weeks of training myself. Good luck! And a really good reason to get rid of porn indeed! Also remember these are just thoughts, not rational and not indicative of who you are. You are what you make yourself

 

I hate how this addiction gave me a false sense of acceptance.

 

I hate porn addiction because I've been used to it for 2/3 of my life and I may be beyond the point of no return. There is no challenge that is going to restore my brain to whatever normal may be for others. I can still remember things I looked at 20 years ago.

Only years of actual monk mode in a monastery may save me now.

 

Thank you, I've been off of P for 40 days now. There are good days and bad days. I have to remind myself constantly that these images and thoughts are irrational and not indicative of who I am!