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The last one relapse

Discussion in 'Porn-Induced Sexual Dysfunctions' started by ediv, Nov 14, 2017.

  1. ediv

    ediv Fapstronaut

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    I have a huge issue: PIED. My penis can work only keeping the focus on the situation. If i lose it, it becomes soft. Mostly, i need particular conditions to get it hard, that's really not normal. Not so healthy.

    My girlfriend leaved 2 months and half ago, she's gonna stay an year abroad. I promised her, and to myself, that when she come back, my dick must work normally.

    Now, in this 80 days i reached 40 days on noPMO, after it, I relapsed. And i didnt restart it yet.
    Time is come. This night i reached the bottom: i fapped 5 times with videos.
    I feel so ashamed, the only chance i have to live a normal life is to cut off these fucking habits. To be stronger, more masculine, harder during sex.
    I have lost a lot of time, if i didnt relapse i would have started to rewire my brain the next month, but now i must wait for 3 months more at least. Good. More time with no possibility to stay with girls, of asexuality.
    It's so fucking stupid, porn lead us to be impulsive, to lie to ourselves ruining our lives. Each one, in this forum, knows it. Everybody has been slave of it.

    Now, i fucking can swear that's the last time i relapse. Who wants to join? Life is too short to waiste our time, our youthness, our energies.

    It's surely important to predict what is going to be the next days: full of urges. Full of thoughts like "it's useless", "just one more time" and so on.

    But the worst is the will to not cut off the link between excitation and porn, that is deeping settled in our minds. Our intention is to eradicate that link. To be asexual, until libido comes back, is the fair price to pay for get a normal sexual life. And it is the only way. I totally believe in the libido's return, i'm just 19 years old and my pied has recovered a lot since i discovered this forum, one year ago. I say goodbye to porn this night, it was (not) nice to meet you, see you in the hell.

    I'll keep this post updated during the next days.
     
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  2. Reborn16

    Reborn16 Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for sharing! This helps me stay focused and want to put this bad habit down for good too.

    It is probably not a bad idea to stay away from girls and try not to think about sex during reboot hey, some people it's easier and they can date, but some of us it just makes it harder.

    Best of luck mate, you got to 40 days you can do this again!
     
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  3. ediv

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    To watch porn without fapping is forbidden too, 'cause the aim is to delete the pathways in the brain which lead from porn to erection, in order to develop the natural right patterns.
    The aim is to get horny by girls during the daytime.
    Not in the evening, alone in the bed, it is bad because i would strengthen the wrong pathways, which are born just by my imagination, not by an exciting setting.
    Also for this reason, to fap is totally forbidden: it would be a stengthen of the pathways linked to physical contact on penis.
     
  4. noonoon

    noonoon Fapstronaut

    dude, you can't fantasize about women all day and expect not to look at porn at night. Much better to stop lusting after women. Stop fantasizing about them as much as you can. Keep the tiger in the cage until you're with your girl. Trust me, when it's "go time" you'll be ready!
     
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  5. ediv

    ediv Fapstronaut

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    Good luck brother! Remember who you could be with freedom from each kind of addiction, mostly without pmo.

    You are surely right, to keep the tiger quiet is one of the secret to succed, and to develop new aspects of your sexual drive
     
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  6. ediv

    ediv Fapstronaut

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    I realize it is possibile to be away of pmo, no need to do it in the last 2 days, even if i feel down.
    At university stuff messed up these days, i have failed two exams, nothing unfixable, but it would have been better if i had done them as i could do.
    No matter, things happen, just keep the focus on what you can do now, on your goal, don't care about bad luck.

    The idea of keeping porn away from me, forever (or at least until i'm enough young/healthy to please my sexual drive with real sex) is kinda weird, but i'm starting to forget it, porn is not an option anymore.

    If i want to have sex, if im horny, the way is to give attentions to the girls which i meet in my life. We are here to stay with people, not alone in a dark room.

    The nofap challenge is a way to get freedom, to innovate our lifestyle, that's the way i see it
     
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  7. ediv

    ediv Fapstronaut

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    It's going on, this evening i felt the same urge that led me to relapse two days ago. But now i won't let it win, now i clearly know that nofap challenge, just for some months, could really change my lifestyle, turning me into the man i have ever wanted to become.

    The trick is to have a clear sight of what you are doing, and also why. Benefits are greater than the temporart fulfillment
     
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  8. DerNeuMann

    DerNeuMann Fapstronaut

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    Yes. Now you understand.
     
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