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Hello I put false name, date of birth, only profession is real, but I didn't even specify profession because I would feel very uncomfortable if I say anything which is truth about my self.
I came here because I have huge and very long time period of watching porn, and masturbating.
I hope as time goes on and on, I'll be happy that I've move to better, so this would be something that I would remember and try to help others to not go in my direction.
Also, if I made mistake in English, I would appreciate if you correct me.

Thanks for welcome

 

My strategy was doing lot of sports, especially footwork, or running to feel very tired, and that worked for some weeks. I stop m...ing, but when I could run more and more, then I started to feel ok, even after running 1 hour. And after workout, I went home and do it.
I said also to my friends about 'not controlling my wish to watch or do it', they didn't say anything good, but it is ok, since they are also in maybe same situations like me.

 

I would like to say about my problem first:
So I started with m... ing 13 years ago, maybe +/- 1 year I started to watch p..n. During my primary, highschool, and faculty I didn't have girlfriend, and I never kissed. So when I was nearly 25, I was still doing ma.. ing and p..n, but as I've never been with women, so I paid women for sex. After that, I paid 3 times later also for sex.
Not sure was that good idea or bad, but being virgin was very in my mind, almost all the time, so pay for sex helped me to become more calm, at least I think that so.
Anyway, now I watch only p..n and m...ing, but every time I do it, I feel like my relative who had problem with alcohol. He ruined relationship with his sisters, with me, family. And some time he was also in my mind when I wanted to do that. I was saying, 'don't be him', 'don't be him' ...
At the end, to things be worse, women approach me, and smile to me when I go out. (I even had sex offer without my any sexual talk with her, I was just normal with her, and she called me in disco and ask me if I want to go with her at her place). Also some other women weren't so direct, but my friends told me 'man, are you blind or you have problem, did you see how she is smiling when she speaks with you'.
So, I know it is perfect time --> anytime when I decide, that it is never too late to quit, but I just can't quit m...in or p..n
I also do m.. ing and p..n couple hours before.
I've also tried with punishing myself, with rewarding my self, with m..ing once a week(ended after few weeks every day), thinking about suicide, hurting myself.
Nothing, still alive, still doing it and watching it.

 

Ok, thanks

 

Hello, set up on mobile phone, every day I'll put day on counter, starting from 06 December 2017 at 00:00.

First step is PMO 10 days. I already done 30+ days without ma...ing, but only few days without p..n.
So now I want all together 10 days starting from 06 December 2017 at 00:00.

 

Yeah thanks guys, must be honest, it is 15 days without MO, first one I broke up, I needed to see any women body, so I watched some pics and videos. But I am satisfied with progress. Actually find new cooling technique. I sit on my head when I got red hot.