Day 0. Lot of things going awry in my life. But relapsing is the symptom, the problem is deeper and I think I'm figuring out what's going on. I am hooked on stimulation, entertainment, whatever the screen provides. I need to disconnect and be still more. Figure out other uses of my time.
6/14 In the morning was at school, after class I got home watched some cartoons (dragon ball super) after wards slept, in the afternoons I went shopping, in the evening played soccer. And now am updating you and immediately afterwards I will recite the rosary and go to bed.
4/14 Today was a very interesting day. My confidence was out of control and I felt amazing but nofap simultaneously makes my anxiety go through the roof. I had two panic attacks in the span of an hour and a half. However, after school, I went to my town Christmas tree lighting to hand out hot cocoa. I felt amazing. Last year, before I discovered nofap, I felt terrible and had suicidal thoughts the whole time as I stared at my crush on the other side of the parking lot. However, today I got very close to talking to a cute guy that was there. I didn't do it because I was having a panic attack as I started to walk towards him. Hopefully, I will be able to get over my anxiety later on my journey. Peace and health to everyone. <3
Day THREE of FOURTEEN. Clean and Sober. I feel centered and am doing better at loving who I am as a person.
Hello All, I may eventually do a longer introduction on NoFap, since I am new here. But, for now, know that I am in for this challenge and was encouraged by a recent urge I just had. I got home from a long day and it's past midnight where I live. I have been PMO free for just over a week and then about 5 minutes ago had a strong urge to masturbate, I started justifying it because I wasn't watching porn. But realizing I'm fooling myself and need to have a full healthy reboot. I wanna keep going on this and I need the sense of community this site offers. Even though I didn't fully give into masturbating. I would like to START NOW. LET'S GO. DAY ONE!