How did you find the inner reason of why to quit?

I tried to quit so many times. That "nutted out drained tired of getting off to some bullshit on a screen" feeling got me started. I wanted to have a real relationship with a cool girl and not be impotent from addictively watching fake whores.

 

Mine was just that I was tired of being lazy and unmotivated. I had gotten a really good job offer, one that I'd be making nearly 40 grand a year at. I quit my jobs immediately for it. But withing the first couple of weeks of training, they let me go. I'm 21, but that job could've helped me in so many ways. I was devastated, still am, but in a weird way I kindve wish it wouldn't of happened any other way because it started a fire in me. Currently on the longest streak since I started in May.

 

Hey bro welcome to the community. Look I’m not perfect and I’m only talking from my past experiences. Porn has been in my life for more than a decade and I’m still struggling to quit .I’ve relapsed probably (I forgot the count to be honest) but I’ve not lost my self belief that I can overcome this disgusting addiction plus I have many more . What I can suggest you is that you keep coming here and update your day no matter you’ve relapse or in a good run for your challenge that you’ve set for yourself. you can learn so much from the people here there lots of success stories there are people whose gone Pmo free 365 days plus counting and there are also people who probably are In worst situation than yours .
So you got to keep making progress . Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will .
Don’t give up . Keep fighting.

 

I just realized that I don’t want to feel like an animal anymore.

 

I felt tired, depressed, no motivation, barely liked anything beside Porn and did nothing productive at all (+ many more reasons), I didn't realize it was due PMO but when I did I was shocked and started to change my life.

Good luck with finding your motivation

 

Failure is part of recovery. If you succeeded your very first attempt, then you really don't need this as much as some of the other guys here. The road to success is PAVED by failure and failed attempts. How long do you think it took Henry Ford to mechanize the first motor? Your recovery has its own plan, and it will click when you are ready. Maybe you need years of failed attempts, maybe you need months, maybe you need long periods of success followed by short relapses. All of these are personal to you. They will make up your recovery.

I've been trying to quit since 2014. This is my 3rd long-period of noFap this year, and I think the third time is the charm. For me, the realization that I'm almost in my 30s coupled with the notion that everyone else is aging and passing me by is enough to really force me to shift into high gear. My poor parent's are so much older now, yet I'm still the same. I should've brought beautiful women around in my early mid and late 20's, I should've shown to them their creation is healthy, happy, and normal. I did none of these things, I sulked, I wallowed, I hid- I abused myself- I placed blame on others. I was weak, I was scared, I was immature. But, I am awake now. And I plan to make my 30s exponentially better than my 20s.

You must find a drive and formulate your own will. Listening to the advice from stranger's on the net is helpful, but in the end it's just noise like anything else. You must feel that pain in the smallest part of the core of you and rationalize that you're finished. It's an ultimatum, really.

 

I see PMO as a tremendous sin. I feel disgusted and feel exteme regret, anger and loss of will power after doing PMO. Not to speak of many other negative things I feel.
I am a person who holds high my dignity. From all the sins I might have this sin particularly destroys my dignity. So I have now completely given up this evil sin. I will never ever come near to this sin as long as I breathe. I make sure to keep myself on this heavy word everyday, every moment.

 

For me
It was a break up
Basically made me have a self reflection & I was disgusted
Losing someone very supported just hurt
me
Which led me wanting 2 change (I'm doing this to get her back but in my heart I know she will NEVER come back )

 

because you will be destroyed by the Brain fog. You'll be like the Walkers from the Walking dead. You're literally dead because you have no motivation for literally anything, yet you still walk the Earth. Another reason, you're literally loving on pixels and not real life women. Another reason, masturbation to porn is literally a Cuck activity. You're watching other Men have sex with a woman and you're wanking away to it.

 

For me it was two things. I picked up a journal with entries from 4-5 years ago. I was struggling then with the same exact issues I’m still struggling with now. I basically lost half a decade. I didn’t want to get any older carrying all the same toxic shit with me.

The other was realizing that my PM activity wasn’t just affecting me. The weirdness that affects me when I’m in full on PMO binge mode also affects my entire family. I can’t bear the thought of having my kids grow up somehow traumatized by having to adapt to a moody, sulking, un-social, unpredictable dad.

 

I just could not get hard even when my girl was giving me a blowjob. It was so embarrassing.

 

My family or porn. I chose my family.

 

I tried and failed for five years. I did have long streaks mind you. But every time I relapsed it put me back in withdrawal that I now see. At the time I was having all these weird symptoms that never sunk in that it was from porn I thought it was something else. But then I started too see others pop up on the forums with the same symptoms and it scared me to death that why I was feeling like this was right in front of me.

It’s also scared me to ever going back and I truly believe i will never watch porn again.

 

Near enough spot on too this soldier!

 

I realized that every moment i spent alone, the first thing i did was looking up porn on my computer. And it didn't give me the same pleasure as it used to. So by quitting i feel i will get more time to do other things i like and care about.

 

I realized P was the cause of my low self esteem and I would never feel better unless I eliminated it. I gave up M because edging caused PE. I won't PM because I know it only brings pain.

 

When I started to get into stuff I was ashamed of also when I started going on this forum and seeing I wasn't the only one going through this problem that motivated me and also my faith has kept me from relapsing I feel a lot more at peace then I have been in years after an 8 month streak trust me it is worth it your sinning against your body poisoning you soul and will turn into a reprobate mind

 

I was pushing pretty much everything - work, friends, family, mental and physical wellbeing - aside to go online. I believed that I needed more time and more images and more intensity and more kink. And it kept getting worse. And it was going to keep getting worse. And when I looked ahead to where I was going to end up...

 

I want to quit because I can't remember who I was before my mind was on PMO.

Who's behind all these fantasies and P thoughts? Who's left after I give up PMOing?

What's under this anxiety, depression, lack of motivation, etc?

What kind of brilliant ideas and marvelous thoughts would I have if I was free of PMO?

Who am I?

I want to know..

This journey is the key to answering those questions, next time I start thinking about relapsing, I'll come to this thread and read this again.

Good luck all.