Why Haven't I rebooted yet?

I started doing NoFap in February 2017 because I have PIED and no interest or satisfaction with real life. I had been PMOing every day since I was 10 (I'm 17 now), so I knew my reboot would be long and strenuous. I have only watched porn once around June of 2017 and I have only O'd about 4 times. I went from Feb 2017-June 2017 on hard mode, then in June I had about 2 weeks of relapse, then from July 2017-Present I have been on a hard mode reboot.

This is going to get weird so if you don't want to read this I'd recommend clicking away... BUT I never get erections randomly, only if I'm touching a girl or I see a sexual meme. I only get morning wood about twice a week and when I do it only lasts like 20 seconds after I get up from bed. I have like no hormones either when I'm by myself. The only reason I'm concerned is because I've read so many stories where guys are talking about how they can't study or focus on anything after 60 days of rebooting because their libido is so high and all they can think about is calling up their SO and 'relieving' their distraction. And how they get morning wood every morning that lasts for 15 minutes and can't do anything until it goes away. I've had about 250 days+ of consistent 'hard mode' reboot and I still feel a sexual and flatlined. Is something wrong with me? Has anyone had similar experiences? I'm not saying I want to objectify woman and run around humping everything I see, but I literally have no desire to pursue a girlfriend and I only want to speak to woman as friends. It's as if I see guys and girls as the same thing; just a bag of meat, skin, and bones. I'm not gay, I just don't see the point in talking to girls. It's really starting to scare me.

 

I was wondering if I'm normal/if anyone has had a reboot as long as this but still has not seen results?

 

It's not that I'm worried about being in a relationship but it is that I'm worried I have permanently destroyed my sex drive. I have been PMOing before I even had sexual hormones (age 10) so I don't know if I ever allowed my brain to develop into being interested in real life girls, thereby never allowing me to get out of a flatline/get rid of PIED/be interested in girls. Like I said, I see guys and girls as the same thing; just a bag of meat, skin and bones. I'm really starting to get scared because I feel like I'm never going to heal. I'm only interested in girls sexually because deep down there's something inside of me telling me to (the "real life sexual dopamine path") , then I think about the bigger picture of "all humans being the same so why should I even like girls?" then after I think and "hormones don't make sense" and any sexual interest I had disappears (the "PMO" dopamine path). Is there any hope for me? My thoughts upon myself and the world are very distraught and confusing. I feel like I'm wasting the best part of my life.

Sorry that was so confusing... I just want an honest reply from someone.

 

It sounds like I have a battle of porn and myself going on in my head.