Shifting my focus

I tried 'I won't PMO NO MATTER WHAT' and I PMOed.

My thoughts on this seems that I'm focussing much more on the problem than the solution.

The solution is transmutation.

Bramacharya is the act of transmutation.

Thus bramacharya is to be my focus.

I am to accumulate ojas each day and use it as it comes.

I'm working myself to the point where it seems to become overworking. This is a different issue though.

I have very little need for a partner. Unless of course she too is focussing on being better than she is and is working her ass off then we can go together. But it won't be for something as stupid as sexual gratification (e.g. she's hot, dem legs, etc).

I pushed my friends away because of PMO for a few years. It seems now to be because of overworking. Tips on this would be deeply appreciated.

My biggest goal above all this is enlightenment. I won't be chasing it as hard as Buddha did or people after him, but it will be chased.

The goal after enlightenment is financial stability. I am 20 at the moment and feel like I would like to work out of necessity for as short a time as possible. If everything goes correctly I am to work to hopefully before 50. Afterwards I will be working because I want to, not because I have to.

 

I did a little reading and no,

Ojas is stored spiritual energy. Specifically transmuted from semen.

It has a subtle presence throughout the entire body and really helps with vitality and mental strength.

King is a dense matter stored in the kidneys.

They say if you have good king then you show good vitality within your facial features.

The biggest difference I see between ojas and jing is that you can build up ojas.

You can transmute semen into ojas. From what I felt ojas can be depleted as well.

King just feels strain through sexual outlet, menstruation and birth.

I'm not sure if girls even have the ability to make ojas.