Feel totally destroyed - need encouragement and advice

Hello NoFappers,

I started NoFap about year ago. Made whole 90 days and decide to keep it to 180. It didn't happen as you can read beneath. However I learn so much about life, myself, gained confidence and some experience with girls. But lets talk about important stuff.

So here is my case. I will try to keep only important information in this post, however its not easy in my current state.

History:
I was on NoFap for about 100 days and met a girl. After second date we went to my place. We've been dating/meeting for about a month as FWB. It sound like a good idea as we are both young and want to experience what is out there. Our relation was mainly based on sex. After some time I started to develop feelings for her. The problem was that we didn't set strict rules at the beginning and above it I thought that she is also developing feelings for me and there was many sings that she want to have someting more with me. Everything were going great until...

A week ago I was ill and couldn't met with her. I knew she was going to the party at friday and that there will be some men, but thought "if she want to betray me she will find 100 ways to do it". On Sunday I had bad feeling and btw. broke my 145 day streak of nofap (still I didn't know what has happened). I wrote to her and she wrote me back, while she was still drunk trying to explain herself, but she didn't tell me what for. We met this evening and she told me that she was partying for two days and gave blowjobs to 2 different men (!) and treated our relation as FWB. I was shocked and devastated. I told her that we need to separate for some time, cause I need time to rethink some issues and I was just angry for her. She wrote me after 2 days that we have to talk. I wasn't so angry as at the beginning and decided to continue this relation as pure FWB. We had previously planed event, so decided to meet then. It was mistake...

We behave as friends and I was ready to go for that deal that we will continue our FWB relation and be free to meet other people. We talked before the event that we are good and she return me some of my stuff I left at her place. After the event we drink a bit and go to my place, but when we get there she didn't want to sleep with me. And I don't mean sex. She didn't want to sleep in one bad. She told me that she wanted to be friends. I answered to her that relation with her without sex is not satisfying for me. She also told me that she has some depression issues and talked with psychologist, but it didn't help and its to soon to go to the psychiatrist. She keep repeating that she don't know what thoughts she will be having, so I think this is why she wants to keep my on distance. She also told me that is ok for her if I flirt with other girls. I told her that she need to keep her shit together and let me only when she done it. She answered that she don't know if she will be able to keep it together ever. She started to cry and took taxi and return to her place.

What should I do? Should try to help her with her issues or leave her alone with this? She want to take some antidepressants, but don't want to psychiatrist. Should I completely forget about her and concentrate on other girls or maybe just stop meeting girls and concentrate on something else?

Even writing this help me, because I can sum all this shit up. As in the topic advice and word of encouragement will be appreciated.

 

Thanks for responses. I think you both are right. I need to let go and start dating other girls, what I actually just started. I know I need to free my self from resentment as sometime I remind her and feel sad and bitter. I have to forgive her and to forgive myself for my mistakes. I know the process of getting over her takes time, but if you know some way to accelerate this process let me know

Thanks for help Brothers