Marine engineer in a reboot

Hi I am 28 year male. Stated m from 16 yr old. Later on I watched p. Now for the past 6 yr I have a real trouble about my life. I joined ship stated to have lonely life away from home. Unable to share my stress or anxiety to anyone. I started hate myself my profession. I was a skinny boy with a severe back pain with results me to have lost my confidence. Now I can find myself whenever under stress I am Pmoed. Later on everything feel so worthless. Sleep is never enough. Brain fog., mood swings, unable to concentrate, unable to handle criticism, unable to

 

I am avoiding any of my triggers possible. But I have so many triggers for PMO. Facebook pictures ,PSubs,stress, work load,loneliness, anxiety ,boredom you name it. I am too lost from the real world. Brain cloud is always present. I have deactivated Facebook. Only reading the journal here which gives me confidence that I also can fight. I will not give up. But I am too doped by PMO

 

Thanks a lot. That's helped. After reading your strategies and tips I realised that I have taken the path not so seriously and half heartedly. But now I know addiction means serious addiction and the my enemy is hostile, they will not spare any chance to beat me, hurt me and drag me to the black hole of depression. So I have made up a plan. 1st I will start for 7 days Hard Mode. Then to 30 days hard mode and next to 90 days hard mode. But I have a question that for the 30 days steak will the 1st 7 days be counted? Thank you big time. And I want to go for 365 days.