Feel libido and some erectile "twitches". Nearly around 7 days into flatline.

So far the PMO abstinence has been going very very well. Haven't looked at porn once in the past week and made myself look away at anything that could possibly be the slightest bit sexually stimulating. I have been having withdrawal symptoms such as mood swings (already have depression, so this is hard to deal with but I will do it), some strong urges to look at porn (flashbacks to pictures and videos too), some anxiety (mainly about my life problems and porn habits. I don't want my porn habits to control me either) and of course, the dreaded flatline.

While I was able to get some pretty good erections a few months back when I abstained from masturbation (But not porn, but didn't look at it as much), before I ruined it by jerking off and looking at more porn, since I have abstained from PMO completely for the past few days my libido has been pretty much dead. The only time I have ever had any real erections was in the morning. I still get morning wood (it's been getting stronger and stronger for the past two days, got really horny this morning as I woke but refrained from sexual thoughts), which has only popped up again two days ago.

Two things I have noticed, and I am not sure if this is a good sign or what, is that I can feel these little "twitches" in my penis, it feels like something that would happen as the result of an erection but I am not 100% sure. They sometimes happen at random and sometimes happen a bit if I accidentally have sexy thoughts in some way or another. Speaking of that, I have been feeling my libido increase very slightly, like I am getting that feeling of mild sexual arousal again. But it's brief and sometimes happens along with the minor penis "twitches".

My flaccid penis size has grown slightly, it doesn't look quite as tiny as it once did but time will tell if it will get any bigger.

I have also been controlling my thoughts better to avoid sexual fantasies of any kind. I have been trying to use the internet a little less at the same time too...that is also hard and made me realise how empty my life really is.

I will still keep this up despite the odds being against me. This is the longest I have gone in quite some time for not looking at any porn in any form. I am just hoping my low libido will improve and that I am just in the flatline stage.

On another note, colours in my life seem more vibrant at the moment. I am still not happy but things look and feel different right now. This to me is a sign that my brain is improving slowly.

 

That's how I could describe it too.

I hope my erections will return too, since I used to have more energy for things when I used to get them regularly.

 

One thing that I have also noticed, I am getting considerably less "gay" thoughts since I began not PMOing. I can see myself as fully Heterosexual now, but my porn addiction habits led to me developing homosexual tendencies, which was kinda weird. But I feel that fading now.

 

Normal experience for guys who don't fap a lot?

That doesn't really make sense, because I WAS fapping a lot. Well...more exactly, I was fapping quite often. Recently I have been less interested in fapping so I was doing it a bit less, but still quite often.

But it was cutting off from porn that I have never been able to do until now. My erections have been less active than ever, it's flaccid 90% of the time right now since I stopped the porn. Even then, my erections were getting pretty weak.

IS this normal for some people abstaining from porn? Their erections are just not coming by their own anymore for the first part of the recovery process?

For some clarification. I have been addicted to porn (as in looking at it every hour I had a chance) since late 2010. Looked at it before hand but not to this level...was also incredibly depressed due to some very unfortunate school problems. So that added to the addiction. Later in late 2011 (around September I think) I started to masturbate, and did it almost daily until as of late. I did abstain from masturbation earlier this year for a few days and I found that my erections returned (quite big too!), but I screwed up like usual. Still looked at porn but yeah...I realised that was causing problems after I read up about people who abstained from it.

It didn't help that reading people say it's natural and healthy (some even saying people don't do it enough!) made me think I should just continue. I am telling you, early on when I was more addicted to PMO, I was quite freaky. It is not natural or healthy to be this addicted to PMO.

When I looked at porn last Wednesday (not since then have I looked at it) I recall feeling more tired and sickly when I looked at it. Felt my body temperature increase slightly too.

 

That's how it feels too. If I simply think hard (not too hard but you get what I mean) about my penis I will get a little twitch.

Hopefully in a few weeks (May be a few months since I am one of the unfortunate younger people exposed to high speed porn) that will become an erection.

 

Another change that I noticed today. Things feel more "real" and colourful now.

For the past few years, things looked more fuzzy and less colourful.

 

I didn't look at anything that was "porn" per say, but I did have a glimpse of something that would have turned me on at least a little bit...but I didn't even get an erection from looking at it. Not even a twitch.

Am I in the flatline state already? I did read about another guy who entered a flatline state the moment he began his PMO abstinence. Or maybe I just have PIED (since I did get raging erections a few weeks ago when I abstained from just M, not P though), but I did get the usual temptation to "try and see" if I could get one up from looking at porn, but I ignored it, knowing that's how most people relapse too early on.

 

I am still keeping it up. MY erections are starting to come back somewhat (very weak and still not full blown erections) and morning wood is becoming more common.

Is this normal after around 9 days or so of keeping this No PMO thing going?