[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 21 completed .... Urges come and go but easier to handle now ... However have to keep my guard up ...

 

Day three complete

 

Day's 12, 13 & 14 I have been a bit busy the last couple of days, Merry Xmas to all!

 

I am on day 2. Aim for the glory..

 

Day 2 merry Christmas

 

Day 6
A fantastic Christmas day to look forward to. Feeling so great and positive.

Merry Christmas

 

okay I'm in lol, but I'm on day 2cmon, so lets start on 0

 

28 Days done

 

Day 1 complete.

 

day 0 it is very sad i am very angry sad frustrated and disappointed in myself i really hoped that i would never relapse that i will quiet forever at the moment i do not feel anything but disappointed i can not stop thinking how weak i a am how can i be successful in my life when i can not overcome my addiction when i can't control myself it felt terribly bad when i PMO yesterday at first i didn't notice but after i masturbated i found out that my eyes were tearing as if my body and mind rejects what i am doing it was a bad feeling i wish that i didn't relapsed because these few days that i stopped PMO i started feeling new things i felt things I thought that i forgot ,I remembered my goals , I was confident , I was happy , my attention and focus was only how to achieve what i want , it was as if I loved myself again i remembered how energetic , motivated and enthusiastic I was before all this happens before this addiction .I despised myself , how on earth have I let myself reach to this level ?For what price ? Is it worth it ?Does these few second of fake pleasure deserved this?Does it deserve the regret i feel now ?I don't think so. If anything makes me feel this bad about myself it surely doesn't deserve it. During the past few days I have learned many things, I started to respect myself , to cherish what I have, started to think that this fake pleasure doesn't matter what really matters is self discipline and confidence.I am writing this because I found that it makes me feel better it makes me feel much lighter it gives me hopes as if I am proving to myself that I truly want to stop and change ,want to be a new person a better one that can do what ever he wants without being afraid to successed .I believe that by surpassing this addiction and overcoming it will be able to achieve what ever I want , it will be my first step in changing my life for the better.I think what went wrong with me and caused this relapse is that i didn't put much effort at first I was motivated then this motivation disappeared for the first week I was enthusiastic I visited the site daily and I was interactive then I stopped so as a counter for this from now on I will visit the site daily and write I will make myself remember every second of everyday that I am quieting and that I am changing to a better person and heading for a better future and that no matter how hard it may seem at the end what I will get surely deserves the sacrifice of this fake pleasure . I also found out that changing my habits can affect me phenomenally like sleeping and waking up early it gives the feeling of freshness and that my day is occupied so there is no time to waste on porn there are more important things to do. Also interacting with others it makes the one feels that he is not alone and that he is missing a lot of things that for sure can give pleasure and happiness that actually matters , it may seem as simple tasks but they have great effect on this process . The best thing about thus times relapse is that I learned many things I pinpointed my mistakes and know how to deal with them that is why I want fail this time I will keep pushing harder and harder till I successed . I will make this blog my reminder so that I never loses my path and whenever I am confused I can return to it .It is only a matter of time till I gain back those 12 days there is no going back .

 

Day 1 ... Again

 

Day 1
Staying strong

Staying persistent

Staying consistent

Staying humble

 

Day 1/90 let's do this

 

Day 3. Making a good comeback so far.

 

fuck man I relasped , I guess I'm back on day 0

 

Does anyone ever feel like their estrogen gets too high the longer they go?

 

Day 2. Merry Christmas my fellow Fapstronauts.

 

No worries. Make sure you learn from it.

 

Don't worry and never give up try to find what u did wrong and learn from your mistakes I know it's not easy but don't lose hope. YOU CAN DO IT GOOD LUCK

 

Day 15. Merry Christmas everybody!