Lost all the benefits... HELP ME

You are being very negative. And stop it with the gloomy doomy soothsayer tragic act. That is self defeating. Do you know what your username Nihilist means?

You are fine. I am assuming you have all your limbs intact, had a good education, you say you are in reasonably good shape(you have a consistent good habit), have a social life, have a gf, a full time job. In other words you are among the most fortunate people in the world.

There is good and bad in the world and we all feel down sometimes but you surely must realize you are more fortunate than most. Bad things happen to good decent people. Our best efforts go down the drain and you get nothing and are left holding your dick in your hand(literally). That is life.

Periods of most growth are usually periods of most pain. Don't dull your pain by PMO, sex, weed, alcohol and shit. Feel it in its entirety, feel its full force. Let the pain drown you, overwhelm, cry man, just fucking cry. Really feel it, because unless and until you really feel that pain, that sadness, you will not begin to change for the better.

Don't give up on yourself, because honestly at some point everyone else will give up on you. But you can't because you owe it to yourself and at least to your parents(even if you can't tell them about your problems).

Most guys is here are lonely, don't have good enough social life, don't have a gf, some never had one. You think are having it bad. It ain't so bad as you think.

Seems to me like you have people around you but you don't really show them your real self. Which is also probably why you can't tell your GF about your problem. You need to get real.

If your gf can't help you, (someone who is a contender for the position of life partner) how can faceless strangers on a forum help you. Yes you will get some encouragement here but really your gf is probably the best placed to help you. And if you are scared to tell her, what is she doing in your life man? Feeding your ego?

Nofap is not some magic 3 month course which will solve all your life's problems. But it will enable you to have the strength to face. 20-30 days to get the benefits back....you are thinking short term goals? And yes you will feel some benefits in 20-30 days, karezza will help probably. But if that is all you thinking, you will have a problems again in a few days, weeks, months. Because the problem is long term and you need a long term solution for it.

Nofap is really not about the number of days, it is a way of life.

You need to ask yourself some very deep and scary questions.

 

So you find life meaningless. You do have a point. I wondered about it myself. Live well or not live at all the end result given enough time will be the same. Everything will return to nothing. Entropy wins. Everybody loses and everything else really comes to nothing. Back to Big Bang and Universe and all. We are so small and insignificant. And if I have to become nothing why not just go to nothing directly and avoid 50-70 years of suffering.

I read in an article that the probability of a human, being born is 1:400 trillion. Google it you will find an article. Pretty fascinating. Makes you feel insignificant and extraordinary at the same time. I mean, I, have a better chance of being successful at Nofap and getting rid of this addiction than I had of even being born....as "Me". Way better chance.

You decide how much of a chance you have, I don't know.

You read a few philosophers you had a few bad days you become a nihilist and think life is meaningless. Dude I don't have all the answers and meaning of life, I am myself quite flabbergasted.

But here is a thought. So you don't know your purpose in life. How about you just decide on one?

That is to be the best you can be, live the most awesome life, money and shit if that is your thing. That is your purpose. Decide on it. Or a help other people while still being obnoxiously filthy rich or whatever takes your fancy. Or simply being free, not attached, healthy, happy. Just live well and you will find a meaning. Living well means Nofap for people like us, for starters. Don't settle for anything less, even in relationships friends, gf.

Once you get to that point in life when you have all that you decided on, feel free to have an existential crisis again. But till you get there, you gonna live your life like a fucking badass mountain lion.