[14-CHALLENGE] THE FOURTEEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

Well, she used to be an old co-worker when I was at McDonald's. She had no interest, and I got her number either. Text her no real interest response... but one day she asked for a ride to class, then homework, then to borrow some cash (she does pay back at least)...you get the point. I have been moved on from wanting to contact the girl smh..

Day 1 due to fantasizng on FB and the team being lazy btw...they too are about to go

 

You understand how much she loves you... Maybe she just want to have some fun..After all its you who has to deal with her.

 

Day 8!
Mood swings again, i felt a bit depressed but with praying and the help of Allah (god) it will be okay

Wish you all the best

 

Sorry I met the co-worker 7 years ago. I'm mostly saying that while we have conversations, it is usually only after not contacting me in forever and the first conversation will be catching up with me. The next one is usually asking me for something smh

 

Also she does not have any interest in me whatsoever. And I get this speech of how I'm the only one she can rely on and the Last person she can ask and blah blah blah. Then comes calls at all manner of the day asking why I didn't pick up, even at night when I'm trying to sleep, yet after she gets outta whatever financial situation, it' a thank you expression of gratitude word fest, etc., etc. Yet if she is in town and I text her I don't get a reply or nothing so I know the game...

 

At this point only reason I help her is because I am a Christian and try to treat people how I would want to...And if I were in a bind...

 

Well I like your humanitarian emotions and would ask you to stay with her. After all she cares for you.

 

Nah she doesn't. She usually with some other man and I know...but I gotta at least try to treat people the way I would want to.

 

Day 2 completed and Day 3 almost completed..feeling amazing right now..

 

Although I did not meet my goal of accomplishing this challenge by the end of the year. Even though I saw some great improvement one mistake caught me to relapse. I'm normally not one for New Years resolutions but I think a new year and new start is exactly what I need

 

Day one complete.

 

Day 3 .....feeling better about myself....I believe that I can get rid of the drug (porn).

 

Day 7 already? Sheesh, I'm starting to get restless with how fast the days are going by over my winter break. It's a wonderful feeling Now to keep the focus...

 

Day 7 starting, I feel so anxious about nights, can someone tell me why I am having so many weird dreams in the night related to sex and some of them getting to me emotionally. I don’t have a lot of urges during the day but sometimes I fear I will not be able to resist a night dream and might have the unstopabble urge to masturbate in the morning after I woke up. I have done it quite a few times in my past... I fear it might happen again, I am weak, God help me

 

Day 2/14

 

Day 4/14

 

Day 1. Felt the urge this morning but didn't turn down the chance to help a friend do some rounds in town. I'm getting addicted to HOPE!

 

Day 3

 

WIP day 14

 

Day 9 done!