The restart of a journey

mrsazay · Jan 3, 2018

D . J . said: ↑

Spend time working on yourself first before trying to meet a girl. Spend more time with God in prayer and with Bible reading. Replace fleshly images with Godly images through spending time with Him.
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Funny thing is that I can't run away from them , in my more free days I spoke to a lot of people so they keep coming back , most of them I disappoint by not keeping up some I try too, I can't exactly run away ? .. I have currently been in my home town for 2 months , solitude and little friends here has made it easier to relapse , are we not meant to be alone for this period ? Thanks for the advice I want to grow in God

WillFightOut · Jan 3, 2018

We will leave it far behind someday.
For now I'm trying these 2 things: 1. Sleeping early
2. Finding a very strong reason to not use pmo. So whenever there will be urge to relapse I'd close my eyes, observe my breath and recall my reason for abstaining.
Let's see where i reach with this.

WillFightOut · Jan 3, 2018

I sent you my list of reasons

mrsazay · Jan 3, 2018

Kurose Ross said: ↑

We will leave it far behind someday.
For now I'm trying these 2 things: 1. Sleeping early
2. Finding a very strong reason to not use pmo. So whenever there will be urge to relapse I'd close my eyes, observe my breath and recall my reason for abstaining.
Let's see where i reach with this.
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i feel the act of closing your eyes and meditating can hold you back for the first few days when you begin, i think it is better to just get up and leave whatever you are doing or where you are and run away change location. sometimes we have to flee from this things , when i am more stronger i will use my mind over it. my opinion you are probably stronger than me

D . J . · Jan 3, 2018

mrsazay said: ↑

Funny thing is that I can't run away from them , in my more free days I spoke to a lot of people so they keep coming back , most of them I disappoint by not keeping up some I try too, I can't exactly run away ? .. I have currently been in my home town for 2 months , solitude and little friends here has made it easier to relapse , are we not meant to be alone for this period ? Thanks for the advice I want to grow in God
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Being with God may require you to be alone or at least not in any sort of relationship. While you are rebooting, you don’t need distractions and would you want to be with someone when you are not at your best?

WillFightOut · Jan 3, 2018

No broI'm not stronger than you. Infact i have been struggling past 4-5 days from it. I've had 4 ejaculations bro in past few couple of days and approx 18 hrs of porn.
Before that i had gone a month without pmo during my exams.
Upon analyzing why did relapse occurr i realised that i forgot my reasons at the time when urges hit me. For example if i have to develop a habit of brushing my teeth at night before sleep, I'd go on for a few days and then mind will start obstructing like i feel lazy today etc. but when it does i have to recall my reasons why i started it, why it's important and it's nature of mind to fall back to old ways.

mrsazay · Jan 3, 2018

D . J . said: ↑

Being with God may require you to be alone or at least not in any sort of relationship. While you are rebooting, you don’t need distractions and would you want to be with someone when you are not at your best?
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True talk , i have seen it already that i do not want to be at my worst , my weakness control my actions and i am overly emotional, you are right. How did you cope with the times you were alone during your reboot? . you are a wise man lol

mrsazay · Jan 3, 2018

Kurose Ross said: ↑

No broI'm not stronger than you. Infact i have been struggling past 4-5 days from it. I've had 4 ejaculations bro in past few couple of days and approx 18 hrs of porn.
Before that i had gone a month without pmo during my exams.
Upon analyzing why did relapse occurr i realised that i forgot my reasons at the time when urges hit me. For example if i have to develop a habit of brushing my teeth at night before sleep, I'd go on for a few days and then mind will start obstructing like i feel lazy today etc. but when it does i have to recall my reasons why i started it, why it's important and it's nature of mind to fall back to old ways.
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yeah i get that feeling , when you go on a streak and you relapse it seems like the devil tries to make you make up for lost time lol, you try and accumulate a lot of nasty content, try and break that circle faster so you can get on your journey again. I spoke to a friend about this and she said i was free and i do not need to let a relapse or problems make me feel caged.. So i say to you in the same manner brother you are free , you are free, A man wearing a white garment does not have a place rolling in mud brother you are free.

WillFightOut · Jan 3, 2018

mrsazay said: ↑

yeah i get that feeling , when you go on a streak and you relapse it seems like the devil tries to make you make up for lost time lol, you try and accumulate a lot of nasty content, try and break that circle faster so you can get on your journey again. I spoke to a friend about this and she said i was free and i do not need to let a relapse or problems make me feel caged.. So i say to you in the same manner brother you are free , you are free, A man wearing a white garment does not have a place rolling in mud brother you are free.
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It's really a shitty feeling after a relapse. Life was so good in that one month period, i cannot describe in words. I feel shit now. But nonetheless it has put me to work for that one month period again and this time with more wisdom learned from last time.

mrsazay · Jan 3, 2018

Kurose Ross said: ↑

It's really a shitty feeling after a relapse. Life was so good in that one month period, i cannot describe in words. I feel shit now. But nonetheless it has put me to work for that one month period again and this time with more wisdom learned from last time.
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bro i understand how you feel, i went through that also i was stronger , more confident and i still fell.. makes you put things into perspective generally in terms of the whole concept of life you know."How can we see what things that destroy us "drugs/pmo" and it still hard to get away from, people everyday make a decision everyday to reduce their progress and yet it is so hard to stop. Without porn we could rule the world or at least our own life lol .. But we won't know till we break this chain. I am ready to fight for my life and my happiness .. We will do it together

WillFightOut · Jan 3, 2018

mrsazay said: ↑

bro i understand how you feel, i went through that also i was stronger , more confident and i still fell.. makes you put things into perspective generally in terms of the whole concept of life you know."How can we see what things that destroy us "drugs/pmo" and it still hard to get away from, people everyday make a decision everyday to reduce their progress and yet it is so hard to stop. Without porn we could rule the world or at least our own life lol .. But we won't know till we break this chain. I am ready to fight for my life and my happiness .. We will do it together
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You are absolutely right bro.

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