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Arise, awake, and stop not till the goal is reached.#90

Discussion in 'Success Stories' started by Deleted Account, Jan 5, 2018.

  1. hello, dear all fapstronauts. this is pandey17 from india , age 23.
    i started my journey on 27th of nov 17. so today i completed my 40 days of noPmo.

    the title "Arise,Awake and stop not till the goal is reached "was the message given by the great man ever born in this world Shree Swami Vivekanand which changed hypnotized state of mind of indians and people around the world.
    by giving this title i only mean to awake the "sleeping soul" inside all of you including me which had gotten into deep sleep because of this PMO.

    i had been addicted to porn and masturbation for 7 year (2010 to 2017)..
    (2010 was the year when my parents gifted me a PC for achieving a 3rd rank in my school and that was the time i got introduced to best thing i had ever seen which later turned out to be a great disaster for me ie nothing but your and mine greatest enemy so far..P..O..R..N)

    (2017 -26th nov..i am here declaring that this was the last day in my life when i watched porn.)

    26thnov 2017 was the last date....declaration...is that ego or over confidence!!!

    no my dear friends...it is nothing but PAIN..deep pain..which i got from so call "temporary pleasure"..which ruined my life during span of 7 year. thats why i made commitment or vow to my self that i will never indulge in this destructive habit again.

    why i hate porn and masturbate so much....there must be reasons.

    and the reasons are as follows.

    1-was a school topper but in 2011 got dropped out of college (pharmacy course) because of poor permanence in all subjects..
    i loved that collage and friends which i made during that year..but when result got declared..all my friends got passed ...except me.
    no need to describe further ..what would have happen to me during that moment as you all can understood..in one line...it was very painful.

    changed the collage so the stream..ie i decided to not to continue with pharmacy degree and got addmission in another collage with new course(Information Tech.)
    IT degree was of 3 year course..some how i cleared the degree but not with good grades.

    but during these three year..i got to knew about ...Army...my passion ..and decided to make Army as a my career.
    after completing with my IT degree i was eligible to apply for army.

    from 2015 to 2017..i have given 5 attempt but all of them were unsuccessful.
    so here again....painful moment..something that hurt deep within..

    2- Hair fall...!!

    3-wet dream.. since 2011..15- 20 times a month....weakness..disturb of mind..felt irritated every time it happens

    4-piles...(byproduct of stress and despair..indirect results of PMO )

    and list goes on....eg. lack of motivation, lack of focus,taking wrong decision ,pimple,wasting of time ,not giving ur best , not fully but partially ED etc etc.

    6th of feb 17..my birthday...i was thinking about whats wrong with me..why i am failing in every aspect of life..may be it..academic, health,career ,social..
    why ...why...why..

    and here i got the answer from the almighty god..as the bible quote says.."Seek and You shall find".

    there was an article in the news paper..."internet porn addiction can ruin your academic performance"..i was like.what!!.
    .just watching a porn can destroy your life?
    watching porn can make you impotent?
    porn is the reason..for divorce?
    that was the point highlighted in that article ..and that was the moment i got the center point of all the problems of my life..ie "Internet P..O..R..N".

    i started reading about internet porn addiction...was surprised when saw n no. of youtube channel on ..dealing and treating porn addiction...interviews , research ,story , forum etc...their i came to know about this wonderful forum #nofap.

    i started my journey on 1st of may....but as you know it is not that much easy as we think..i relapse..made a plan...relapse...again made a plan..and this cycle kept going till 26th nov.

    in between i kept working on my knowledge on how to fight this dragon..

    this things helped me a lot.

    1 - you tube channel..Mr Smith..who is now my inspiration and mentor.
    2- book.."your brain on porn"
    3- Nofap..ie you all..your stories..your guidance.....without which it was not possible to go a single day without pmo.....thanks you so much.

    what you wstern ppl call it nofap...we indians know it as a Bramcharya(celibacy)
    just name is differnt ..but meaning is the same.."keep your mind busy in doing good and abstaining from masturbation and porn.


    now i know my weakness (porn and mstrbt) ...and my dream..Army..so guys need your bless as exam dt is near by...its time to prove my self and to protect my country against evil minded ppl and my mind from porn and masturbation.

    hope you guys get some inspiration from my story and wishing u all very best for your nofap journey.
    and once again thank u so much #nofap team for doing such a great work.
     
  2. mrsazay

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    Go chase your dream bro
     
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  3. VietelJuice

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    Keep your mind on the prize, you can do it! Make sure to find other non-PMO ways to enjoy yourself too, you deserve it :)
     
  4. I can very well relate to your story man & I can feel the pain that you felt all these years.. I too was a good student in school & pre-university but then things went south in university when I struggled with everything during those 7 years mostly because of pmo addiction & the underlying problems.. I became an average student who never realized his potential in the university!! But here I am, on day 59, taking step after step towards improvement with nofap(abstaining from pmo) being the 1st step & moving towards health, academics, relationships, life as well !! "Arise, awake & stop not till the goal is reached !" is very inspiring quote by Swami Vivekanand !! Goodluck for your army exams & do the noble job of protecting the country & countrymen!!
     
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  5. EyesToSeeEarsToHear

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    Dude that is awesome! Keep it up!!
     
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    Awesome !!! You're great man !!
    You can do it
    Best of luck for your army exams :)
     
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  9. thanks Bro..and yes off-course.
     
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  10. yes bro..the time which i used to waste on PMO..now utilizing those time on cycling,reading books,meeting old frnds and doing meditation. And not only i am enjoying this new and productive habits but also gaining benefits from these.
     
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  11. hello brother,
    how are you? hope you are doing good with ur life and following ur nofap plan well.
     
  12. thanks brother.
     
  13. thank u ..thank u so much fr ur best wishes.
     
  14. thanks dude.
    and lets complete this nofap journey..successfully.
     
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  15. cool...and inspiring too.
    this quote was said by Swami Vivekanand.
    read book on him..u wil get some inspiration from his life as he was a great believer and supporter of Celibacy or in other word..#nofap.
     
  16. very correctly said @SSGSSV77..i had never thought that just watching porn and doing masturbation just b4 exam can even makes me a college dropout. whenever i think about those momemt which i had wasted and not enjoyed makes me feel very depress and feel very regret about wasting my one year and also wasting my parents money (college fees).
    but its ok..now i learnt a lesson and vow to never make those mistakes again... nd live a better life.
    and thank u so much for ur best wishes !
    and also praying for you..to achv ur drm and live a better n happy life.
    just do it! we all are the same so lets decide deep withn to change and transform our life for better and nvr look bck.
     
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  17. Nice to see you quote Swami Vivekananda. Have you read his works too. Your story is very well written and explained in detail. Thanks for it. How long did it take for you to rewire your brain. What are you feeling like now. Have you observed a stark difference in your patterns. I am very interested to know about your progress. So keep updating and wish you loads of luck and strength for your army qualification examinations.
     
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  18. Son of shiva

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    Pandey I am also from india.my story is just same like you.i will like to talk you on this matter.
     
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  19. determined_new_life

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    Excellent, keep going on your journey. I once visited India and know of the great teacher's and brahmacari life, I wish you well brother
     
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