How Bad is Your Addiction

Interesting thread... Sadly, I've been at it for 4 years and have gone without it as long as 14 days, but that's it... Mine is pretty bad, but luckily I can get out of it before I get into relationships

 

I've had this problem about 30 years. It was harmful in the 90s, but it has grown worse with the increasing availability of internet content. I've only abstained twice in my life. About 3 months when I first started college 1985, and about 2 years beginning in 2009 when I had a psychotic breakdown.

 

I've been at this for 7 years with my longest streak at 30 days. And on a scale of 1-10 I'd put myself on a 11 cause there was days whereby I went the whole day doing it.

 

These psychotic breakdowns are so common with porn addiction.

God this stuff really is so bad, it’s just a sneaky little thing powering so much in society that we could do without.

Porn addiction can cause, I repeat, can cause mental illness! What the hell have we been doing to ourselves?!?!?

 

Interesting... Thanks for the info, En Emmee, I had always suspected a connection, but I haven't been able to find anything through google to back-up my suspicion. Psychiatry seems to think pornography is healthy and normal, but I don't think they realize how much there is now.

 

I cannot see how this is answerable as any conclusion will be subjective.

A similar unanswerable question is: do you have a high sex drive?

 

I think frequency for how many years is a good indication of a persons’ addiction. Everyone should post this so we can all track and gauge how long things on average start coming around. Frequency is very important not just the year, in my opinion

 

No worries, glad I’ve found a place to voice certain things.

Psychiatry, whilst useful is based on maintaining control over certain things rather than digging too deep to solve them.

Porn keeps people in a fantasy type state - distant from reality. If you repeatedly push yourself away from reality with that type of intensity and willingness , you’ll eventually lose touch.

Mental illness can be caused by so many things but porn can definitely not just be a symptom, it can also be a root cause.

 

I would not be surprised if researchers discover a correlation between excessive pornography use and mental illness.

As weird as it sounds, when I've been bingeing in the past I start hearing voices inside my head. Almost like an auditory hallucinations. Or being in a dreamlike state whilst awake. Creepy…

 

When I abstain for months, I can orgasm off no touch, straight imagination, consciously. My addiction is so bad, I have masturbated in some weird places. I want to relapse every moment of my day. My addiction is so bad that once doesn't do the job for my brain to get that high, but I need to have a second consecutive orgasm to feel the dopamine hit my nervous system. If I could pause time when I feel the hormones release into my brain I would live my life in that moment forever.

 

Once a day for 10 years, most of it to stuff that doesn’t even match my sexuality

 

It's pretty complicated, so this is simplified version. I decided to quit drinking and PMO. It seemed surprisingly easy. Then two weeks later I began to have psychosis with religiosity. After two years I was stressed and happened to accidentally watch an ordinary movie that had an arousing scene and caused a relapse. I couldn't get back on the horse after falling off.

 

This is so true for me as well, after fapping for hours before falling asleep I'd feel shocks n pops in my ears then see shadows moving even though my eyes are closed, then id get paralyzed, this lasts a few minutes then id fall asleep. Ive had psychosis before in the past but mine was caused by weed.

 

I don't know how to rate it from 1 to 10 but it frankly led me to depression, nothing seems worth living now. This is my first streak for real (Made it to 9 days once and just 2 days after just for fun idk...) so I'm trying my best to stay away from porn FOREVER if I can.
But like I said, right now and being home alone for this whole week, everything is just shitty and I even struggle to get out of bed whenever I'm lying down.
I don't know, if this happened to you I could really use some advice, because I was a happy boy years ago and now I feel like a miserable man who doesn't feel anything, any real emotions. And like En Emmee said, I think I've lost so much touch with reality through the years...

 

Was that the synthetic weed? I have heard some people say that it can cause psychosis.