PMO is screwing up my life and I'm not stopping.

mimoo32 · Jan 9, 2018

I hate to make this post but it is time for recovery and being serious about it. I have been addicted to PMO for many years now and have been trying to quit the past 4 years. It has been horrible. I at most make it through 1-3 weeks and relapse for 4 years. PMO has severely impacted my anxiety levels (I had panic attacks), depression to the point of visiting counselors, loneliness (I've never had a girlfriend or kissed one) even though I'm a handsome and attractive guy and after 2-3 weeks of abstaining, I feel amazing and like I am whole again and then relapse. I can't figure out why I won't quit. It's horrible. It's impacting my intimate relationship (because I don't have one), empathy with others, personality (aggressive and lonely, depressed and anxious), low motivation, energy levels, and even businesses. I used to PMO every day. Now, I've gotten to about PMO 1-2 times a week max. But I want to quit it. It was my new years resolution for 3 or 4 years now (thats painful to think about) and I quit last Christmas and I'm back at it. It's even getting more extreme from just looking at pics, to more hard core stuff, to more hardcore and personality changes, to online cam sites to now considering paying money for cam sites, sex massage parlors and even brothels. I'm 20 years old. I first discovered porn at 11. Didnt start really watching until 12-13. Absolutely horrible.

On the other side when not doing porn, I'm a totally amazing guy. I'm literally running 2 online businesses grossing over half a million in sales, have employees, do personal development training as far as having my own elite coaches, helping others, travelling to over 10 countries last year and living all over the globe, getting invited to exclusive events and even getting accepted to a uni I want to go to next semester that costs 40 grand a year that I am paying for myself to learn how to manage real estate, hotels and restaurants. I drive wickedly cool cars, go skydiving and do all these amazing things, and then when I get bored I do this stupid PMO shit. I'm tired and want to kick it out of my life once and for all; I guess I simply haven't found that leverage that will take me to never do it again. Please help, how do I quit this and start living my best life possible.

I havem't told anyone about this because I have not been vulnerable enough to admit I have such a huge problem hwne on the outside my life looks bloody fantastic, when in fact, I am living a double life.

Player 1 · Jan 9, 2018

You have to fight for your freedom man, sadly nobody will do it for you.
It's hard, but give yourself a good reason to stop before you do irreversible things you could regret. More you stay in this, more you'll become vulnerable and addict, and do things against your will.

You can't escape the fight it's the only way to end up being better.
Stay positive.

Deleted Account · Jan 9, 2018

mimoo32 said: ↑

I hate to make this post but it is time for recovery and being serious about it. I have been addicted to PMO for many years now and have been trying to quit the past 4 years. It has been horrible. I at most make it through 1-3 weeks and relapse for 4 years. PMO has severely impacted my anxiety levels (I had panic attacks), depression to the point of visiting counselors, loneliness (I've never had a girlfriend or kissed one) even though I'm a handsome and attractive guy and after 2-3 weeks of abstaining, I feel amazing and like I am whole again and then relapse. I can't figure out why I won't quit. It's horrible. It's impacting my intimate relationship (because I don't have one), empathy with others, personality (aggressive and lonely, depressed and anxious), low motivation, energy levels, and even businesses. I used to PMO every day. Now, I've gotten to about PMO 1-2 times a week max. But I want to quit it. It was my new years resolution for 3 or 4 years now (thats painful to think about) and I quit last Christmas and I'm back at it. It's even getting more extreme from just looking at pics, to more hard core stuff, to more hardcore and personality changes, to online cam sites to now considering paying money for cam sites, sex massage parlors and even brothels. I'm 20 years old. I first discovered porn at 11. Didnt start really watching until 12-13. Absolutely horrible.

On the other side when not doing porn, I'm a totally amazing guy. I'm literally running 2 online businesses grossing over half a million in sales, have employees, do personal development training as far as having my own elite coaches, helping others, travelling to over 10 countries last year and living all over the globe, getting invited to exclusive events and even getting accepted to a uni I want to go to next semester that costs 40 grand a year that I am paying for myself to learn how to manage real estate, hotels and restaurants. I drive wickedly cool cars, go skydiving and do all these amazing things, and then when I get bored I do this stupid PMO shit. I'm tired and want to kick it out of my life once and for all; I guess I simply haven't found that leverage that will take me to never do it again. Please help, how do I quit this and start living my best life possible.

I havem't told anyone about this because I have not been vulnerable enough to admit I have such a huge problem hwne on the outside my life looks bloody fantastic, when in fact, I am living a double life.
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With all that going on I’m surprised you have time to PMO.

You need to get a therapist who is a CSAT (certified sex addiction therapist) tell them you’re a porn addict and you want to quit. That’s the start.

Exponential Power · Jan 9, 2018

mimoo32 said: ↑

I hate to make this post but it is time for recovery and being serious about it. I have been addicted to PMO for many years now and have been trying to quit the past 4 years. It has been horrible. I at most make it through 1-3 weeks and relapse for 4 years. PMO has severely impacted my anxiety levels (I had panic attacks), depression to the point of visiting counselors, loneliness (I've never had a girlfriend or kissed one) even though I'm a handsome and attractive guy and after 2-3 weeks of abstaining, I feel amazing and like I am whole again and then relapse. I can't figure out why I won't quit. It's horrible. It's impacting my intimate relationship (because I don't have one), empathy with others, personality (aggressive and lonely, depressed and anxious), low motivation, energy levels, and even businesses. I used to PMO every day. Now, I've gotten to about PMO 1-2 times a week max. But I want to quit it. It was my new years resolution for 3 or 4 years now (thats painful to think about) and I quit last Christmas and I'm back at it. It's even getting more extreme from just looking at pics, to more hard core stuff, to more hardcore and personality changes, to online cam sites to now considering paying money for cam sites, sex massage parlors and even brothels. I'm 20 years old. I first discovered porn at 11. Didnt start really watching until 12-13. Absolutely horrible.

On the other side when not doing porn, I'm a totally amazing guy. I'm literally running 2 online businesses grossing over half a million in sales, have employees, do personal development training as far as having my own elite coaches, helping others, travelling to over 10 countries last year and living all over the globe, getting invited to exclusive events and even getting accepted to a uni I want to go to next semester that costs 40 grand a year that I am paying for myself to learn how to manage real estate, hotels and restaurants. I drive wickedly cool cars, go skydiving and do all these amazing things, and then when I get bored I do this stupid PMO shit. I'm tired and want to kick it out of my life once and for all; I guess I simply haven't found that leverage that will take me to never do it again. Please help, how do I quit this and start living my best life possible.

I havem't told anyone about this because I have not been vulnerable enough to admit I have such a huge problem hwne on the outside my life looks bloody fantastic, when in fact, I am living a double life.
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Since you are successful in other areas of your life you are clearly capable of greatness. So what's holding you back? Only you can answer. The keys to success in NoFap are the same as any other endeavor: commitment, strategy, diligence. Why are you doing NoFap? What do you want to achieve? What are the consequences of PMO? Your answers are the foundation of motivation. Write it down. Take it seriously. Try to remember what you were doing and thinking before you relapsed. You've already identified one trigger: boredom. Make a plan to address boredom before it happens.

JakeO5 · Jan 9, 2018

You are a PWO of PMO, you must escape, take your weapon and fight PMO, it is WAR, you need freedom because you are under command of PMO and it is taking over your life, and you are a tough man, 4 years and you still have a reason to stop, you are one strong tough guy, people should fear you, feel proud have dignity in yourself, 3 nights ago i was anxious AF, last night was okay, and tonight it is a light depression / sad feeling and im happy about these shitty feelings,, i know wow like how, because instead of PMO to get that dose of dopamine that feels so good, i will rather choose to feel like shit for a few weeks and get it over with then PMO again, and what does that show??? Toughness, so man dont let the withdrawals bring us down, because these withdrawals is just proof that we are going somewhere, we want change we want that new me feeling we seek it, and we are in war against PMO, you are a soldier battling a addiction and that proofs that we are fearless warriors

Ymfsm · Jan 9, 2018

mimoo32 said: ↑

I hate to make this post but it is time for recovery and being serious about it. I have been addicted to PMO for many years now and have been trying to quit the past 4 years. It has been horrible. I at most make it through 1-3 weeks and relapse for 4 years. PMO has severely impacted my anxiety levels (I had panic attacks), depression to the point of visiting counselors, loneliness (I've never had a girlfriend or kissed one) even though I'm a handsome and attractive guy and after 2-3 weeks of abstaining, I feel amazing and like I am whole again and then relapse. I can't figure out why I won't quit. It's horrible. It's impacting my intimate relationship (because I don't have one), empathy with others, personality (aggressive and lonely, depressed and anxious), low motivation, energy levels, and even businesses. I used to PMO every day. Now, I've gotten to about PMO 1-2 times a week max. But I want to quit it. It was my new years resolution for 3 or 4 years now (thats painful to think about) and I quit last Christmas and I'm back at it. It's even getting more extreme from just looking at pics, to more hard core stuff, to more hardcore and personality changes, to online cam sites to now considering paying money for cam sites, sex massage parlors and even brothels. I'm 20 years old. I first discovered porn at 11. Didnt start really watching until 12-13. Absolutely horrible.

On the other side when not doing porn, I'm a totally amazing guy. I'm literally running 2 online businesses grossing over half a million in sales, have employees, do personal development training as far as having my own elite coaches, helping others, travelling to over 10 countries last year and living all over the globe, getting invited to exclusive events and even getting accepted to a uni I want to go to next semester that costs 40 grand a year that I am paying for myself to learn how to manage real estate, hotels and restaurants. I drive wickedly cool cars, go skydiving and do all these amazing things, and then when I get bored I do this stupid PMO shit. I'm tired and want to kick it out of my life once and for all; I guess I simply haven't found that leverage that will take me to never do it again. Please help, how do I quit this and start living my best life possible.

I havem't told anyone about this because I have not been vulnerable enough to admit I have such a huge problem hwne on the outside my life looks bloody fantastic, when in fact, I am living a double life.
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mimoo32 said: ↑

I hate to make this post but it is time for recovery and being serious about it. I have been addicted to PMO for many years now and have been trying to quit the past 4 years. It has been horrible. I at most make it through 1-3 weeks and relapse for 4 years. PMO has severely impacted my anxiety levels (I had panic attacks), depression to the point of visiting counselors, loneliness (I've never had a girlfriend or kissed one) even though I'm a handsome and attractive guy and after 2-3 weeks of abstaining, I feel amazing and like I am whole again and then relapse. I can't figure out why I won't quit. It's horrible. It's impacting my intimate relationship (because I don't have one), empathy with others, personality (aggressive and lonely, depressed and anxious), low motivation, energy levels, and even businesses. I used to PMO every day. Now, I've gotten to about PMO 1-2 times a week max. But I want to quit it. It was my new years resolution for 3 or 4 years now (thats painful to think about) and I quit last Christmas and I'm back at it. It's even getting more extreme from just looking at pics, to more hard core stuff, to more hardcore and personality changes, to online cam sites to now considering paying money for cam sites, sex massage parlors and even brothels. I'm 20 years old. I first discovered porn at 11. Didnt start really watching until 12-13. Absolutely horrible.

On the other side when not doing porn, I'm a totally amazing guy. I'm literally running 2 online businesses grossing over half a million in sales, have employees, do personal development training as far as having my own elite coaches, helping others, travelling to over 10 countries last year and living all over the globe, getting invited to exclusive events and even getting accepted to a uni I want to go to next semester that costs 40 grand a year that I am paying for myself to learn how to manage real estate, hotels and restaurants. I drive wickedly cool cars, go skydiving and do all these amazing things, and then when I get bored I do this stupid PMO shit. I'm tired and want to kick it out of my life once and for all; I guess I simply haven't found that leverage that will take me to never do it again. Please help, how do I quit this and start living my best life possible.

I havem't told anyone about this because I have not been vulnerable enough to admit I have such a huge problem hwne on the outside my life looks bloody fantastic, when in fact, I am living a double life.
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Hi buddy!

Your key to success, to get rid of this awful PMO habit is to reach full consciousness. In this state of mind you will have the power to stay away from PMO when you feel the urge.

So first you have to develop your consciousness, than you have to take care of it. The biggest mistake is that you simply dont work on it day after day.

Feel free to send me a message if you would like to hear more on this method!

Deleted Account · Jan 9, 2018

I feel you man that post hit home how I used to feel. Best advice? Stop now before them symptoms get worse and believe me it does get worse. It will be hard as fuck, you will see glimpses of normality then back to feeling like shit (withdrawal) but you have to endure the pain to re sensitize back to life.

You will grow as a person too and much stronger! Don't look back!

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