My first journal, from today I start to control myself more. Please help me.

Hello Mark85,

So for how many days have you been abstaining from PMO? Have you tried working out and meditation?

I wish you the best of lucks!

 

This process takes time. If you have been addicted for several years don't expect to go back to normal in a month... You have to persevere and continue on this track to overcome those thoughts. Get educated on sexual matters on a scientific way, not just to get horny, try to be above your compulsions. You are in charge, not them!

Working out and meditation are two great ways for improving your reboot!

 

Yeah, when masturbation becomes a habit for years, it is difficult to get rid of. However, buddy, be patient. I notice that there are lots of emotions influencing my mood which might trigger a relapse when doing the nofap challenge. All we need is to wait and let it go! Find a new habit to build on! The best way to get rid of this bad habit is to find a new one to replace it. Perhaps jogging, reading or exercising would help! Currently, I am also doing meditation every morning and I feel strong and positive! You will be impressed by the results!

 

You are on the right way! You have to reach full consciousness about this addiction, thats how you can fight against it!

What most of us leave out of consideration is that this consciousness have to be developed every single day. Thats why nofap is a great place, it helps us to stay aware!

The biggest trap is to think that your awareness is trained enough not to care for it. When you stop to stenghten it, than your cravings will emerge and you gonna face stuggle again and again!

So be aware and enjoy life!

 

Bro, I am 20 years elder to you. Only.

Now, the question is, do you want to be like me (what I was just 2 months back) in 20 years or do you want to become the 'Best Version of yourself'. You have to choose. It is really a choice you have to make.
(Read my latest post....you will understand....I will post here in 'italics' the first message in my thread ''90 days challenge after failing 20,000 times'')

Start date : 30th November 2017, End date : 27th February 2018

No matter what happens, I will complete this challenge.
I have failed not 10,000 times but 20,000 times.
Yes, I have suffered for the last 20 years.
Yes, I am 37+ , single (always was), without job (worked for 2 months in my entire life....not 2 years...2 months).
Yes, partly my body and mind has given up.

But my soul didn't.
This attempt is for my soul. For my 'being'. For the 'real me'.

This is my first thread in the 'rebooting section'.

And bros, I can guarantee you that, I am one of the worst sufferers in this entire forum, if not 'The Worst'.

And I want to show everybody here and to myself that, if I can succeed, then 'goddamn anybody in the whole wide world' can overcome this addiction.

So, my attempt is also dedicated to everyone who is trying to overcome this addiction.

Please bear with me. I will try my best not to disappoint you.

What I have endured is 'Hell multiplied by a million times'. Trust me on this.

Don't be like me in the next 20 years. (I mean my 'past me').

I plead you with my folded hands.

I wish you all the luck, but the fact of the matter is 'luck' has nth do with 'our recovery process'.

It is hard work, persistence, 'never give up attitude', 'faith in oneself' and determination which will sail us through.

And let me tell you again, if I can do this, so can you, and 'goddamn anybody'.

Let the ''dead past bury it's dead''. Start from today, and build yourself '1 day at a time'. Build your 'know-how' in the 'science of porn-addiction'. Understand the science to fight the 'so called beast'. Understand your triggers. Keep a small note for yourself (i have mine) so that you understand, which, when, where and how 'the triggers' make you relapse or makes your life difficult. If possible take 'cold showers' every day (at least once....but twice is recommended). Taking 'cold showers' everyday is a very powerful thing you can do to fight this addiction. Taking a 'cold shower' changes your 'life energies' instantly.....and that's why the 'mind' also realligns itself in a positive direction and not in a 'destructive downward spiral'. I would recommend you to workout everyday (at least for 20 mins....I am myself working out for for the last 3 months), do any kind of meditation (mindfulness will also do) for 20 mins everyday.

And don't worry much, do the right things....and you will be fine. Show them all, that you can overcome this addiction. And thus you will help not only yourself....but thousands of 'men and women' who are on the same boat like you and me.

Your 'success story' will inspire them (including me) a lot, a lot. Believe me.

 

Extremly well put bro....thanks a ton....

 

Buddy no offense but this isn't the section for journals.

 

You are welcome bro! I am just strenghtening my awareness!

 

How are you doin? Are you on the right track?

 

Does your aunt look like a P star?

 

Dont worry, Iam ok man!