How to Not Get Bored then Fantasize?

This has constituted my NoFap journey. Most of my relapses began with me feeling bored at home, usually in the afternoon on weekends when I actually got a bunch of work to do, but were not having enough spirits to complete them. At that moment, something will happen inside my body that causes me to become horny, with absolutely no trigger at all. Due to my body felt so tired (bored induces the sense of weak/exhausted altho I did nothing), I would usually take a short nap. And that is, when the urges hit me so fucking hard. I start to fantasize using my own views about girls I meet everyday, and when I tried to get rid of this horniness by sleeping, by the time I woke up it's still there! Most of the times the urges got even more difficult to resist. My hands began to grope my genital, and 5 minutes later I would look at myself feeling disgusted. I tried to pee before the nap but it doesn't seem to help me that much either. During those days when I'm out for the whole day however, the urges were little to 0.

It happened once again just today. And since I also have a tendency to have another relapse following the first one, I ended up relapsed twice. So 2 questions, should I stop taking a nap? How to not fall into the same pit twice by having a second relapse following the first one?

 

It is annoying tho since I live with my parents and as a 15 yr old guy I couldn't just go out anytime with above reasons. The most logical thing to try is to seek a friend's house but that too sometimes aint allowed by my parents. Any ideas to do something at home?

 

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Do not play loud musics? Wow does it contribute to these urges?

 

Unfortunately I do not have a backyard & yes I am not allowed to go around my neighborhood for walking purposes only. I'm planning to talk regarding PMO issues to my parents but currently our family is having a bit of financial crisis, and I just dont want to bother them with any other burdens. Duh why everything seem out of solution?

 

I tried to write, really. But I'm just terrible in languages. Me getting anxious has put myself in between a boundary where I couldn't be creative enough to write as good as I'm willing to, in which I'm being overly perfectionist. But that doesn't help in anything. By trying to make my writings look good and neat its taking me super long time just to add a couple hundred words, and honestly after those hardworks the end result is not even that 'good-looking' to my eyes. Doing the opposite thing by letting loose all my brain and write all I want creates an even worse results. Afterwards when I look at my writings I feel bad cause it's so poorly written (because I suffer an anxiety disorder here so basically I fear anything). Despite all of this, I do still update my diary separated from NoFap. So instead of finding it as a way to overcome boredom, I put it as a mandatory to add new contents of it every other days or so. How do I practice my writing skills? Blogging?

 

Thanks for the ideas man. I'm gonna read more books start from now on.

 

IKR, I've never counted fantasizing as a relapse, but I'm considering to do so because it has proven to be very effective to trigger a relapse. I'm now trying my best to stay out of the house & spend a lot more time w/ my friends. It seems to be the most suitable option with my conditions.

 

Really, my mind deceiving me HAPPENS A LOT OF TIMES EACH DAY. My mind always playing tricks on myself is the reason why I got anxious and lack in confidence. It is often damn difficult to resist & fight against our own thoughts.

 

I wish I could just tell my parents or literally anyone close to me at the moment abt this porn addiction I suffer. While other people can just go out for a short walk, I can't, at least not without a reason. I want to be open but other things haven't settled yet over here so telling my family probably won't be a good idea. If I just could do so, I'm gonna just tell my parents that everytime I get horny I have to go out somewhere to mute the desires. I used to have a crush to chat regularly with & completely forget PMO, but now that she's gone away I have noone to chat with.

 

My brother is also a supportive-type. But yeah, he wouldn't understand either since he's a good-boy-kind of guy and does not really get into these things (he even knew sex at 14/15 which is insane considering 5 year old kids nowadays are exposed to P ald), so I don't think sharing this to him will be a great idea, instead I'm just gonna make him feel bad cause he knows he can't help. After our fam has settle up our financial problems however, I think it's the right time for me to tell them (I hope I can do a full reboot before the crisis ended though).