It was a bad weekend

Failing is okay aslong as you don't stop trying. Eventually you will find yourself at the top but it takes effort to get there. You will experience good and bad days, mood shifts and so on but if somehow you can take it all in then you will see progress for sure. Good luck and don't be depressed about it

 

Eliminating masturbation will not ruin your sex life. It is doing it that has. So it is counterintuitive that you would resume this harmful behaviour. However, it is true that the brain needs to have downtime/flatline when making necessary repairs. That means no sex drive for several weeks or even a few months (depending on the damage already done). But ultimately, you will emerge with your brain recalibrated back to its healthy set up and you will continue with a healthy sex life.

 

your sex life is ruined by fapping. Are you willing to get clean or is the sex you are having more important than wrecking your life and your penis. Do you want to keep masturbating to porn and not be able to have normal sex with a woman or man whatever your taste.

You have to decide. Blame no one but yourself. Look at nothing but yourself

you decide. You do not need encouragement. You need to develop a backbone and decide that you know what is wrong and you know what is right. If right happens to be difficult and painful and not as easy as wrecking your life you do right.

If you dont care about getting clean because of the sexual dysfunction that might make you last longer or get harder today, probably with porn thoughts, then you dont want to get clean or get healthy.

You have to decide. You cannot blame it on anyone but yourself. You are the only one that does your life. You have to decide that your life is going to be one of healing, strength and goodness.

Up to you

 

I am glad to hear you are starting again. Masturbating 3 times in a couple of days is not a disaster (as long as you do not keep doing it ). And never be nervous or afraid to come here and write a report in the reset and relapse forum. You will benefit from the collective accountability and the feedback from your peers that can sympathise and advise you specifically.