Day #0 As it is the last day of the 14-days challenge, it is also the preparation day for this challenge. From tomorrow I will start this. I am sure it will be very hard
12/21 Mood lifting slighty. All my changes seem to be happening in a good way but slowly. Which is no bad thing.
congratulation on 4th day. congratulation on 2nd day. congratulation on 5th day. congratulation on 15th day. congratulation on 4th day. congratulation on 1st day. congratulation on 13th day. congratulation on 12th day. congratulation on 1st day.
Yesterday I had a dream where I was pleasuring a woman. I am sticking with no PM challange but I feel bad lately. I don't exercise, I don't study, I just play games and watch youtube and twitch tv. Also I am thinking what will I do after those 21 days. Will I continue or not? I'm scared of that thought.
Finding today rather difficult, doing a report that I dont want to do therefore I'm subconsciously looking for a distraction and that provokes a trigger for me, twice nearly I have looked online for psubs only to stop myself. I know its just a habit, and I know if I ride it out it will subside just like smoking used to. But man...sometimes it's so intense, it nearly panics me and I want to dive straight onto a p-site. So the very best thing is to stop what I was doing and just type about my resolve, type it out that I am not going to slip back into the crappy lifestyle that I once constructed for myself, lifestyle ha! more like a debauched, anxiety hell pit. Whoa, feel better now! Thank the Lord for this place and you guys. Right ok back to, I might post another panic post lol, but its better to flap than fap eh lol.
Day 16! Feeling a little tempted right now but porn is cancer to my well-being and sexual release is meaningless if done by myself so I will not be giving in tonight!