My desire to watch porn again increased!!

Hi guy I was a pmo addict last year. After that I started stopping pmo. Its been one year I have been struggling but every two or three weeks I watched porn and fapped every 10 days. Yesterday after a long time I wached porn very much even one hour. And fapped. Today again just like the times when I was hard addict, my brain is urging for watching even more videos and says to me porn is very interesting wow watch it more. The images of porn in my mind is constantly coming. Beside after pmo I am having a brain fog and hard depression today. Feeling awful.... as I see although i have chabged very much physicaly and mentally since limiting it but dont think recovered well because off relapses. What u guys think????

 

There is something strange wd me. Although im interested in women. When I try to quite porn, after two or three week of not watching porn I really feel urged to watched gay porn. Dont know why that happens wd me. Befor when I was watching porn much I always watched the opposite sex porn. But now after long time of no pmo my mind urges me to watch gay porn...

 

Lolzzz ok...
Today I have had very bad depression after I watched porn yester day. Very bad depression even my eyes acking. Few hours ago urges were so strong to watch porn again but I controlled myself. However watched kissng and making out YouTube videos, which is what still I dont want. I know that can again leads to porn. Im trying to make a goal of 30 days challenge...

 

Well dear. Although I dont like boys. Im intrested in women. Whenever I watch porn sometimes my urges become strong to watch a boy being fucked. Sorry lol

 

Yesterday and today I relapsed again guys. I only watched porn and didnt fap. What you guys think will happen wd me????