[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 10/90

 

28/90 . A long way to go.

 

Finished day 66/90.

 

Starting again. Day 1.

 

12/90

 

31/90

 

Day 8/90

 

9 days. Had another good day. I am very focused on work and family now. Just wish I would have been more focused on family before. Everyday I realize a little more how I wasn't giving them the father and husband they deserve. I am working towards changing that.

 

Day 27/90!

 

Day 14 was a tough one. I had to remove myself from any chance of PMO just to be safe

 

Day 1 complete

 

I’m in. Day zero today.

 

33/90

 

4/90

 

17 days

 

Day 11

Wear Briefs not boxers when you are home alone. They help alot.

 

Day 17 - Sometimes I feel very motivated, sometimes less, but I don't care, cause I know that in the end, NoFap will help me dramatically. #persist

 

Day 33 complete

 

Day 29
This day has started even much better than yesterday. Got up earlier than usual by a whole hour. I did my miracle morning routine and additional exercises. I guess the mental darkness is finally over until the next inevitable challenge, problem or puzzle comes along.
I want to follow the advice that is laid out in the power of now book. It does not go well with me counting the days since my last relapse. The last few days have shown me I need to live in a more mindful manner, to live in the now. Keeping a counter makes me anxious to be honest. It is like I am counting the number of days to my next relapse and it is a constant reminder of my porn addiction. At this juncture, I still have 61 more days to 90. It adds pressure to the pressure cooker. Keeping a counter also means I need to be a perfectionist. It is all or nothing. It is 90 days or bust. That is not the way a healthy reboot should be in my opinion. The counter is good when one is starting out on NoFap. However, for me it has become some what counter productive. I am becoming obsessed with what day I am on as if progress is linear and is solely based on abstinence from PMO. It also makes me live in fear of triggers. My life cannot be ruled by fear. If NoFap is a lifestyle why am I still counting the days anyway? I have struggled with this idea of counting days for a long time and I have contradicted myself for too long. It is time to make a final decision on it once and for all time. I will stop counting days once I hit the "magical" 30 days tomorrow.
Once thing that I have been throughout this NoFap journey is indecisive. I make one decision and then change it days later and revert to what I was doing previously. I think I can start being more decisive by making this decision and sticking to it.

 

Day 7/90. Yesterday was a great day. Since starting this challenge (even though I relapsed) I find myself motivated to plan ahead in some areas of my life I neglected for too long. That alone keeps me in a positive state of mind and I like it. Keep it up everybody!